http://x-juggernaut.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] x-juggernaut.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] xp_communication2004-03-08 01:03 pm

Email: Monday afternoon

To: D'Ancato, Marie
From: Marko, Cain
Subject: Identity

Didn't mean to get you riled up about the name thing. I'm coming at it from the other direction - the government got me my legal status BACK after being, you know, legally dead and all that. It might be a pisser to have to do stuff under a different name (you said you were trying to enroll in college, right?) but hey, beats not having to do it at all. Besides, you all go by code names when you put on the uniforms and play X-Men, this wouldn't be much different, really. I'm sure Miss Gavin could whip up some stuff for you in no time flat.

If you ask me, you always seemed like a Sally. Don't ask me why. :)

~Cain.

[identity profile] x-rogue.livejournal.com 2004-03-08 10:18 am (UTC)(link)
To: Marko, Cain
From: D'Ancato, Marie
Subject: re: Identity

Sometimes, when my head gets out of order, my name is all I have to hang on to. I am Marie Hope D'Ancato, I am eighteen years old, I have green eyes... it's the litany, right? It sometimes helps me find my way back through all the other people in my head. Does that make any sense?

I know the reasonable, practical thing is to drop it. The safe thing is to put on another name, to dye my hair, to become someone else. Because "A rose by any other name..." right? But that's assuming that the rose remembers it's a rose, and remembers where its roots are grounded.

It's just a name. I know that. And maybe if I were tougher, I could just let it go. I try so hard to be me. Maybe I could do it under a different name but if I can't, if I slip up... see?

Marie

PS ~ I always hated my name. Except for the Hope. I liked that part. And I am /so/ not a Sally. ~ M.

[identity profile] x-rogue.livejournal.com 2004-03-08 12:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Actually, I'm kinda NOT them, in as much as I can make sure of that. That's the point. And I didn't apply to be here, I got dropped off and never left. That and that whole "Erik can't have what he wants" issue, of course, is why I'm here.

I wouldn't let anyone call me Lensherr if my life depended on it. Literally. I'll take a name I can respect, if that's what's decided needs doing, something like Summers. Because I'd be proud of that.

Marie

[identity profile] x-rogue.livejournal.com 2004-03-08 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
You've given me a great deal to think about, and I should thank you for that, Cain.

It's one thing to have someone's thoughts in your head. I've had that. It's something else altogether to have THEM in your head. I have many people in there and there's a qualitative difference. I don't recommend either if you can avoid them.

Anyway, I'm about done with this conversation because I'm totally failing to deal with it reasonably. (Not this email, the 3 I didn't send you.) I'm going to go take a few advil and think about this all later.

Marie