Email to Shinobi

[xp_daytripper]

To: SShaw@xaviers.ny.edu (Shinobi Shaw)
From: ASefton@xaviers.ny.edu



Hey.

Sounds like you and Sarah and the rest are having yourselves a great time. Which is good, because you all needed it. Hope the kids ain't driving you mental.

I'm doing... well, I've been doing pretty good, but I think a bit of that was getting me powers back. Now the first happy-buzz is wearing off, not to mention the release from the whole cleansing ritual, I'm realising how much work I've got ahead of me, and to tell the truth, I'm scared. And before when I was scared, I either ran away or used something to make the feeling go away - a spell, booze, even Manny - but those ain't options any more. Which is why the random email out of the blue. Just needed... fuck, I don't even know what I need. Someone to tell me I'm worth the effort of fixing this, I suppose. Courage, to do what I have to. A time travelling machine so I can go back in time and tell Moira about that fucking groundskeeper's power before it started getting to be a problem.

I also need a fag. That I can do something about. Even though its weird, sitting there on the back steps of this place and smoking, and not having you or Ange or Sarah to talk to or get a light from.

I suppose what I'm saying is I miss you lot. And now I'm going to go have that fag before I get any more sappy.

A.

PS: I can't email Manny, or comment in his journal. They've put some kind of fucking block in. Let him know from me I don't hate him?

Comments

[x-shinobi.livejournal.com]

Hey.

Happy to confirm that we're having a good time (despite Sarah throwing me into the Atlantic twice - it isn't my fault the bint at the store recognized her. Well, I guess it sort of is, but that's hardly the point), and the boys are actually a big part of it. Who knew?

I'm glad you're doing alright, luv. I've been trying not to worry, and largely failing at the task, but I'm still managing to enjoy myself, so don't worry. Just been on my mind quite a bit. Getting over the impulse to run is hard - I've been there, I know - but in the end, it's worth the bloody aggrivation. And no matter what anybody tells you, yourself included, you are worth the effort and aggrivation. Every second of it. The courage you need is already there - you just need to use it.

When I get out there, hopefully with Sarah in tow (the boys and I are discussing strategies tomorrow over ice cream), we'll definitely owe you a stoop-and-a-fag. It'll be a party.

I miss you too, luv. That much was probably obvious pretty early on, huh? Enjoy your fag.

-Shinobi

PS: I'll let Manuel know. He'll be happy to hear it.

[xp_daytripper]

Thanks, mate. It's hard to be strong all of the time, and it seems last night was the night for doubts, not just for me but a bunch of folks.

Still, it's another morning, and Rom says I'm actually going to be able to do some real magic today. First time since Limbo. I s'pose I'm making progress.

Good news on the get-Sarah-to-Brighton front. I've promised the boys chocolate if they help. *grins* And the plane will be suitable revenge for those cold baths in the Atlantic. ;)

Thanks for being my go-between with Manny. Everyone's so pissed off at him - and for good reason - but I worry. He sounds so alone, and I know what that's like.

See you in a bit! (no, not counting the days at all, what makes you ask?)

A.