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[xp_legion]

To: [Cohuelo, Gabriel]
From: [Haller, David]

Sorry if this kind of thing is out of line from the guy you only occasionally share cigarettes with, but is everything all right? You seem combative this week.

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[xp_velocidad]

Well, it's not my fault everything and everyone here is frequently irritating

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[xp_legion]

Right, exactly like that.

I just wondered if there's any particular reason you seem to be looking for a fight.

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[xp_velocidad]

Okay well there's no particular reason except that 10 years ago my boyfriend and half my friends died and look who they've been replaced with lately.

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[xp_legion]

Oh. Earlier this month was . . .

Shit.

No wonder I can't seem to get it together lately.

I'm sorry.

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[xp_velocidad]

Whatever anniversaries are bullshit but sometimes things hit you hard, you know?

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[xp_legion]

Yeah.

I'd love to say I'm usually more aware than this, but my preferred coping mechanism is to blot out large sections of time so I can enjoy the somatic and emotional effects of my post traumatic stress without any of the insight.

Well, I'm here if you want to talk. Personally I would just as soon not actually rehash that, but getting drunk looks less like substance abuse when you're doing it in someone else's vicinity.

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[xp_velocidad]

Because my experience time is so fucked up, I tend to be more aware of the actual calendar. A stupid side effect.

Not much to say, just my tolerance for bullshit and capers is not particularly high right now, and I think some of these people need to be socialized to others.

But I'm always game for a drink.

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[xp_legion]

In some cases I would agree with that, through no fault of their own. It's a process.

A very long process.

It wouldn't hurt to be somewhere other than work or my suite at least once this month. If you've got a place in mind let me know. Mostly because I intend to get blitzed, and it probably shouldn't be on the porch.