Amanda Sefton (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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xp_communication2005-08-26 07:15 pm
xp_daytripper) wrote in xp_communication2005-08-26 07:15 pm
Email to Manuel
To: [de Guzeman, Manuel]
From: [Sefton, Amanda]
Subject: So that's it, then?
I won't let you help me with your powers, so I don't get any help? Knew I was right about you wanting to control me.
A.
From: [Sefton, Amanda]
Subject: So that's it, then?
I won't let you help me with your powers, so I don't get any help? Knew I was right about you wanting to control me.
A.
Reply
To: Sefton, Amanda
Subject: No, you'd like that too much
And I made you a promise, that while we were together it would just be you and me.
And while you might not honor it, I shall.
And how is this _possibly_ about me? This is all you - your desire to ignore my help, your want to do this alone, your shutting me out.
Do not try to claim otherwise.
Manuel
Reply
From: [Amanda]
Subject: Wondered when that particular dig would come up...
I could tell you I haven't cheated on you, but you wouldn't believe me any way. And you know what, I'm sick of this. Sick of arguing, sick of trying to explain why I don't want you using your powers on me to make the cravings go away, sick of all of it. You'll believe whatever you want, regardless, and I don't have it in me to try and make you understand me any more.
Let's just call it quits.
A.
Reply
To: Amanda
Subject: You're the one who asked me to break my word!
It's not nearly that simple. You're sick - confused, feverish, vomiting. You're not yourself. You beat this thing - with or without my help - and then we can talk it through.
Doing anything now would be rash and foolish. You've said you don't want my help. I don't like it, and I wish you'd change your mind, but I will honor your request and not help you.
You're getting what you want. You should be pleased.
Manuel
Reply
From: [Amanda]
Subject: Fine.
Once Rom's charm gets here, we can talk. You might find it helpful to talk to the doctors before then - maybe they can explain what I can't about why I don't want you using your powers on me. Try Grey - she and I had a talk about it early on when I decided not to let any of the psis help with their powers. Not even Nate.
And there's more ways to help than just your powers. Someone to keep me company, distract me when things get bad, find food I can keep down, make sure I drink enough water. Hold my hair back while I'm throwing up. That was all I needed of you, not all this... shite.
I'm going to try and sleep now. I won't bother with the email again until Rom's charm gets here. Don't want to do any more damage than I already have, and it only makes me feel worse.
A.