Email to Amanda

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To: [sefton, amanda]
From: [ramsey, doug]
Subject: Piss off

When approximately the entire office minus Emma looks at you like something they want to scrape off their shoe on a daily basis, and your girlfriend gives you what is essentially the silent treatment on steroids to the point where she hasn't even slept in your shared apartment for over a month, THEN you can goddamn tell me how to react. Until then, or until Pete decides to question my judgment enough to fire me, I will keep doing my job, and that will have to be good enough for you.

In summation, fuck you, you don't get to tell me how I get to react to things.

-Doug

PS - you're welcome for the card.

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To: [doug ramsey]
From: [amanda sefton]

Subject: And fuck you too

That fucking bitch handed me over to Candra who fucking tortured me. Did you think I'd throw you a bloody party?

If you can't handle the repercussions of your choices, don't bloody well make them.

A.

PS: I never asked you for anything. You chose to give me a birthday card. So stick your passive aggressive bullshit up your arse.

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To: [amanda]
From: [doug]
Subject: And the goddamn high horse you rode in on

No, I expected this to be a team where we do our best to trust each others' judgment calls even when it's shitty. Like Pete said in the first place.

Here. I'll refresh your memory.

http://community.livejournal.com/x_snowvalley/929.html

In specific:

-"I asked you all to help me because I trust your judgement. This means that I don't care how you do the job, as long as the job gets done. You're on the ground, you make the call."

-"I will not lie to you. This is not to say that I will tell you everything at all times, so do not expect that. We live in a world where there are telepaths that are not on our side. What you do not know cannot be taken from your head by force, or tortured from you."

-"So this is the compromise: For as long as you work here, I will ask you to behave like bastards, and I will ask the impossible from you. And in exchange, you get to exercise your own judgement, and with any luck, somewhere between the two, we might manage to make a better planet."

And if a bit of sarcasm here and there is how I deal with it and get on with doing my damn job, then so be it.

-D

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To: [doug ramsey]
From: [amanda sefton]

Subject: Judgements

Yeah, I remember that. I also remember the conversation I had with Pete after I found out the whole White King thing was a cover so he could take the Black Court down. I accepted that he had to make a call. But his call meant I did the stupidest thing in my life and nearly got Alison killed and actually did kill Askani to bring her back. Because I blundered into the whole thing since I believed one of the people I cared about most had abandoned me for personal revenge and I can't forget the damage I did because I thought I was alone. I'm not allowed to forget.

What Pete did meant that he upset a whole lot of people. Including me. But he didn't make "sarcastic" comments on the journals (I'll own the first half of your first comment was actually sarcasm, the rest of it was just whining), he didn't try and make people feel bad for having their own personal reactions to what he did, and he didn't try to justify himself. He just said his piece and that was it. You've noticed Emma isn't saying anything on the journals about no-one talking to her, haven't you? You think she wants a whiny White Knight?

Yeah, I'm bloody furious at you right now for not telling us about the whole Black Queen thing - you let us go into that situation blind and you let that happen when my little sister and my apprentice were both on the line which wasn't part of the deal.

But even with all that, me being angry at you wasn't necessarily going to last forever - it didn't with Pete, after all. But every little passive aggressive comment you make makes me pissed off all over again, because the least you can fucking do if you think you're in the right is take your medicine like a man. Stop trying to tell me I can't be angry about springing on me the bitch who had me and a bunch of students kidnapped at gunpoint and my boyfriend beaten to shite, on top of handing me over to Selene's lunatic apprentice. Stop getting on your high horse when people react and maybe try and explain why you did what you did without the passive-aggressive P.S's.

A.