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To: [Manuel]
From: [Amanda]



Mainly because I don't understand what would drive the man who had just been shot in the head to make that post unless something happened to freak him out. I know something happened last night, the link was full of it, so you want to tell me just what the fuck's going on?

A.

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From: Manuel
To: Sorgin

He's on some very potent drugs? And he's possessed by thousands upon thousands of unborn souls who determine his every move? Apparently, he's supposed to be some sort of _messiah_ to them.

Worse yet, I think he believes it. There is nothing left of the man we knew.

Manuel

Re: And just when did you see all this?

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Bullshit, Manny. Yes, the Askani are in there with him, but if you can't see he's still there as well, your dampener's making you blinder than I thought.

All that aside, what on earth made you think late last night was a good time to talk to him about this? For fuck's sake, Manny, the man got _shot_ in the _head_ and you're hassling him about something the Professor's known about all week? If you don't care about him, think about me. Do you think I _like_ putting him back together? Healing spells aren't a fucking walk in the park energy-wise, and you probably undid anything I managed to do yesterday. He needs rest as much as the rest of it to recover, and you going down there to rummage through his emotions ain't helping any.

Do me a favour? Stay away from Nate. Better still, stay away from me until you grow some bloody consideration for us lowly peons.

A.

Re: And just when did you see all this?

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There was no better time. I had to verify it for myself _before_ his body healed enough to be mobile and active.

And you Healed him? I didn't know. Why would you do such a thing? Especially if you _knew_ he was infected by those - things - in his head?

I do not understand why you are so angry with me. I was trying to HELP, to save us all before those _things_ get a chance to get loose!

But if you'd rather be infected by those not-born things, then please let me know now.

Manuel

Re: And just when did you see all this?

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I healed him because he was hurt and because he's my... friend, for want a better word. Because my friend got shot three times and could have died, and there was something I could do to help him, when he's helped me so many fucking times already.

Those aren't _things_ in his head. They're memories, or ghosts, and they can't get loose, they've got nowhere to go. If they _were_ going to infect us all, they would have done it already, before the X geezer got a look at them. Besides, the mansion's got Ms Frost's bloody psychic alarm on it, and we have half a dozen telepaths in here, all of who are much better at the brain tricks than Nate is.

You want to know why I'm angry? Because Nate's too fucking scared to take his pain stuff because he thinks you're going to kill the Askani. Because you made him afraid to see _me_, in case you were with me or had sent me to do your dirty work. You fucked over someone I trust, for no good reason other than to get information you could have gotten from Xavier, or waited a day or two - three gunshot wounds aren't going to go away any time soon, even if I drain meself dry healing him. You undid the healing I'd done, the stuff I had to go to a sleazebag magic dealer to get the power to do in the first place, without even talking to me about what you were going to do first. Because I've had a fucking headache for almost two days straight from the magic I've been doing, and now I have to do it all over again.

And I'm angry because I've been out of me head with worry about everything, and you've just nicely added to that. Thanks a lot.

A.

Fine, then.

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I understand about obligations. More than you know.

And yes, there _ARE_ things in his head. I have SEEN THEM. One of them tried to choke me! So I think I know what I'm talking about here.

I would, if I thought I could. To bring your friend back from the jumbled tangled mess that he's in now. That's all I wanted to do, all I was trying to accomplish. Now that will be impossible.

And I do not need to ask you for permission to do anything. I am still my own person, and I will _NOT_ let you dictate what I can or can not do! I do not insist that you ask me to do anything at all, kindly do me the same respect.

Damn, I miss my power. I never had to deal with these things when I had it.

Manuel

Re: Fine, then.

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They aren't _things_, they're _people_. And you threatened to get Nate exorcised, which would destroy them. No wonder they got a bit shirty with you. Death threats tend to do that to people - I know you don't like it since you bring it up every time something happens with Angelo.

And I wouldn't give a toss, except the people you piss off tend to be the people I get on with, and I'm the one who has to try and clean up your bloody mess if I ever want to have a friend in this place who isn't you.

I didn't say you had to ask permission. I didn't even say you _had_ to talk to me about it first. If you wanted answers, you could have asked me for them, seeing how I spend a lot of time with Nate, that's all I meant. It'd be pretty bloody hypocritical of me to insist you clear things with me, wouldn't it?

And that'd suit you right down to the ground, wouldn't it? Using your power to make me not angry at you?

Re: Fine, then.

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*sighs*

I don't have any friends here besides you. Is that such a bad thing, really?

I didn't know you _had_ any, and it didn't enter into my mind to ask. You can't see his emotional state, not like I can.

And no, it wouldn't. I have to learn to deal with this the way the deadheads do. I'm sorry I got frustrated. But I have to do this the hard way.

Manuel

Re: Fine, then.

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What about Marie? And Shinobi? And no, it's not a bad thing, it's just... I don't know. I don't want to be the only person in your life, because I ain't exactly reliable. Even with the link.

I don't deal well with responsibility.

And no, I can't see his emotional state, but I've seen his aura - and theirs. He's got to energy of a million people inside him, and it's amazing to look at, but he's still there, I've seen him too. There's a book - well, a chapter of a book, really - that might help explain, if I get it back from Nate. If you want to know.

You're not the only one frustrated. I'm sorry I gave you such a bollocking, just seeing Nate afraid like that scared me, and then he didn't want to see me, because of you, and that hurt... And it doesn't help I've still got the headache from hell and nothing I'm trying is helping, and I've got my English grammer exam in about half an hour...

Re: Fine, then.

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Shinobi is gone. Marie is leaving, if what I hear is true.

I will try your book, if you think it will help. I am not unreasonable, despite what you might think about it.

I could have handled the whole situation much better. But everyone just mocks me and makes me feel foolish whenever I try to _do_ anything or _help_ anyone.

Makes me wonder sometimes why I even bother.

Manuel

Re: Fine, then.

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You do help. It's just sometimes I wish you'd think a bit more before doing some of the stuff you do, is all.

And I'm too tired to do this any more - I'll come find you after this exam. Right now I'm going for one last fag before it starts.

A.

Re: Fine, then.

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I do?

Really?

When you are finished with this absurd school stuff, come and find me. I believe I might have something for you. Something you will enjoy a great deal.

Manuel

Re: Fine, then.

[xp_daytripper]

Consider absurd school stuff done, as well as the absurd merc stuff as well. I'm on me way over now.