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To: [kobaro]
From: [sorgin]



I ain't risking another situaiton like last time, so we're doing this the hard way.

Now, I get I was probably talking too much, but which part has you all shitty at me? 'S not like people don't know you have problems with your powers, and they've had you mirroring before. So what did I say?

A.

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That's not the point.

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From: de la Rocha, Manuel
To: Sefton, Amanda

You just handed these people a weapon. A very powerful weapon. When I embarrassed you, that's all I did. I embarrassed you, and I revealed something that you weren't comfortable revealing. And we both know how I felt about that.

What you just did was _threaten my sanity_, potentially. All it takes is _one person_ who decides to jerk me around, and I'm done for. We saw it with Bobby, remember? And that was accidental.

If Angelo so much as _glances_ at me in a manner I do not like, I'm going to stab his eyes - promises be damned. I have a right to be _me_!

Manuel

Enough with the paranoia

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You ain't the first person to have control issues in this place, and you won't be the last. And that includes telepaths, and no-one's taken advantage of it before. Besides, I doubt half of them will even understad what I meant any way - they don't get you or your power, as you're so fond of pointing out. And if they do know, then maybe they'll actually cut you some slack, or at least keep away from you when they're feeling something they don't want back in their face?

Angelo wouldn't do it on purpose, and just to make you happy, I'll tell him to keep even more clear of you than he is already doing.

A.

Maybe, maybe not.

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From: de la Rocha, Manuel
To: Sefton, Amanda

Guess I'll have to live with that risk.

Manuel

Like you told me...

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... you don't have a lot of choice. I didn't do it on purpose, I didn't even think you'd react like this, but I can't agree with you that it's a bad thing.

Guess it makes us even, tho'.

A.

I am trying to remain charitable...

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From: de la Rocha, Manuel
To: Sefton, Amanda

and assume that you're not in _favor_ of the Mirror, or of someone manipulating me through it.

I am trying very, very hard to believe that you'd not do that.

Manuel

Because it's so much fun...

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Having me own emotions mirrored back at me and not being able to have this sort of conversation face to face like we should be.

That was sarcasm, by the way. I hate the Mirror, and how it makes you act. You should know that. And you want to know why? Because it ain't you. I much prefer you to the Mirror, and the sooner you learn to do without it, the better, in my book.

I can't argue with that...

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But you never answered the issue I raised.

Manuel

I did. Half of it any way.

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Okay, nice and obvious.

_Not_ in favour of the Mirror. _Not_ in favour of people manipulating you through it, even when it's me.

A.

I see.

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I ... don't know quite what to feel about that.

Care to tell me?

Manuel

Re: I see.

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That first day after you got stepped down, you were mirroring me a lot and you wouldn't believe you were doing it, so I sort of used it to get you to the X geezer so he could check you over.

I ain't proud of doing it, but I had to - you wouldn't have agreed to going if I'd just said.

A.

Honesty!

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I like that.

I like that a _lot_. And that's _ME_, dammit.

I refuse to return to second-guessing my every feeling.

I'll let it slide this time. But I am _trusting you_ not to fuck me on this one, Amanda.

Don't let me down. Please. You know I have very little trust left in me.

Manuel

I wouldn't let you down.

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Like I said, I hated to do it, and I wouldn't again, not if I could help it. That probably doesn't mean much with me history and all, but... you can trust me.

A.