Letters in Darcy's Safe
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xp_communicationLetters dated December 2024
Maya, honey.
Sister of my heart.
I am so very sorry that I'm yet another person in your life leaving you. Please know that whatever happened... I wouldn't have done it if it wasn't important. Unless something embarrassing happened to me, but for the sake of my pride I'm going to write this like I went out either doing something extremely epic or by quietly fucking up the lives of several people worse than myself and becoming collateral in the process. Cool chicks don't look at explosions, but sometimes they have to bring the building down on their own heads. I hope whatever happened, it was worth it to have an outcome where this is read instead of shredded in March and replaced with a newer one.
I love you, and I am SO proud of the woman you're becoming. I hope I got to see you a last time. That I was able to hug you. Sign and laugh with you. If I didn't... fuck. I'm so sorry. You've grown so much from that angry, scared teen I met, and I will be watching over you. Somehow. I'll see you again someday, and when I do I'm going to give you the biggest, tightest hug I can. I promise.
Thank you for being my sister and my friend. You've got a standing invitation to go to the farm, so if you'd ever like to spend time with the rest of the family... they'd love to have you. I was hoping to take you this spring or summer, but... well. There are tickets for it - refundable or transferrable and in your name. They're yours, along with a few of my personal effects. One's that quilt my gran made, the one with the star pattern you like so much. Every time you wrap yourself in it, know that I'm hugging you. That I love you as much as if you were my own blood-kin.
I hope you have a long, full life with more joys than sorrows, and that you're able to surround yourself with people that matter, that can be your shield and comfort when you wield the sword of justice. That they give you hope for the future and a reason to keep fighting. That you find love - friends, family, romantic - and are able to take comfort in the gift of their love and support as I took comfort in yours.
If I'm dead... I've asked my family to consider you and Kevin kin per our traditions. Congratulations, you're now Maya Lewis-Lincoln-Lopez. Lincoln-Lopez Lewis? Something along those lines. Gran or Auntie will teach you any of the traditions you want to learn. If you do, mix them with your own. We're an adaptable people. Things done respectfully and with love are to be appreciated (and stars know I've never been a stickler for tradition).
Keep that beautiful thing inside you that makes you want to fight the injustices of the world and hone it into a protection for yourself and others. Stay true to yourself, and know that I will ALWAYS be proud of you. Always. No matter what.
Forever your sister,
Darcy ♥
Inez. My Sunflower.
Ah hell, sunshine. I don't even know what the fuck to say. I'm sorry. I hope I got to see you one last time. That we got to catch up, cuddle, and generally enjoy one another's company. If not, know that I regret it.
I just want you to know... I think given a little more time I would've fallen completely arse over teakettle in love with you. I definitely love you already for what you are - my friend, lover, and the sunshine in my life. The healthy friends with benefits I didn't know I was capable of having. I value your friendship. I love the sound of your laugh and the way we fit together when we cuddle. Your smile makes my days better, and every time I unlock a new piece of Inez Lore I delight in what I'm learning. Even when it's the hard stuff. I want to bask in your presence like a cat in a sunbeam. But I think if we'd had more time, it would've been more. Something deep and enduring, built on a solid foundation of tears, laughter, friendship, and mutual respect. I wish we'd had more time to try.
I hope you find that some day, because you deserve a love as wonderful as you are. Know that I'm cheering you on from wherever I am, and that I wish you long life and more joys than sorrows.
I'll always wish I'd had more time with you. You, Maya, Kevin, the rest of my family... I'll always want to be greedy and have more time with the people I care about most, and you are definitely included in that number. Never doubt that. I loved every minute we were able to have together, and I was always looking forward to having more.
I left you a few things. Kevin's got the list, but you'll get this letter first.
And listen... he likes to hold up that tough façade of his like he doesn't have feelings and shit, but could you check in on him sometimes? He needs people who care about him too, regardless of how much of a prickly cat he can be. If something happened to me on the job, I just know he'll blame himself as the person who effectively acts as my handler. I doubt it's actually his fault, he works hard to keep his assets as safe as the job allows. But he takes the losses hard.
You're a beautiful woman with an amazing soul, Sunflower. Thank you for being my ladyfriend and someone who made the world just a little better for being able to see your bright smile.
Hugs, kisses, and lots of love,
Darcy ♥
Kevin. Boss. My Darling.
Thank you. For taking me under your wing, for protecting me, for being my friend and my confidant. For kicking my ass when I needed it and always pushing me to be better, faster, more clever than my opponents. For being a surety in a very uncertain world.
I love you dearly, and I hope I got a chance to tell you that in person. I'm sure you already knew, but... well. You know how much I like to put all my cards on the table. So here they are. You started as my mentor and at some point you became my friend. My rock and compass. As our friendship deepened, so did my love for you. Platonic, then... more. What we had was enough. Is enough. More than I ever thought we'd get, and I wasn't willing to throw that away. Enough of my friendships were ruined by adding a relationship to it. I couldn't bear for that to happen with us, so I gripped what we already had with both hands and refused to let go of it. I cherish our relationship as it stands, and I'm sorry we don't get more time. That I'm another asset (and friend) gone too soon.
You probably blame yourself. I can't tell you not to, but I can tell you this: I firmly believe that you do everything in your power to keep us safe on missions. You try to place us in situations where we'll thrive and excel as often as you can. You risk your own self more than you risk us. So yeah. I can't tell you not to blame yourself, but I can tell you that even if you pulled the trigger yourself - and I know there are scenarios we talked about after Laurie where I asked you to do just that - then I trust that the choice you made was the best option. If not for me or us, then for the world at large. Whatever it was that you're taking blame for - I forgive you. I doubt I ever blamed you, but I forgive you regardless.
You're a better man than you like to say you are. Take care of yourself. Please. If not for yourself, then for me. I'd say you have a long, full life ahead of you, but you've already lived one. That doesn't mean I want to see you anytime soon, you hear me? Don't you fucking dare be reckless with your life, no matter how seemingly immortal you are. I'll find a way to kick your ass myself if you do, just watch me.
I left some of my personal effects for you and Nora, but really. You're the one handling my estate (medical, disappearance, or some wretched combination of all three) and whichever way it shook out I'm sorry that burden falls on you. So if it isn't a bequeath for someone, keep anything you want and do what you'd like for the rest. Maybe give Jubilee my outrageous footwear if they fit her. I have a few suggestions listed for some of it - mostly the more practical clothing and bedding in my possession.
My room should be dismantled, but... talk to David Haller, find out if he or his new ward could use it. It's a much cozier alternative to The Box. And well... it's nice to know you're safe when you sleep. If they can't, there are instructions for how to dismantle it without needing to rip out the drywall again. That's the packet for Parker and/or Barton. If neither of them are available, Forge's contact details are included. Or just rip out the drywall. Deconstruction is surprisingly therapeutic.
If you're able... please deliver the letter to my family in person, and hug the fam for me. Maybe whisk Gran off to Vegas for that shotgun wedding and think about my laugh when you get the chance to tell me how she wrapped you around her finger. If I'm dead... well. I hope you were able to recover my body. I've asked my family to consider you and Maya kin per our traditions. Gran agreed. You're a Lewis now too, no take-backsies!
One day we'll meet again. I have faith in that, and I have faith in you.
Always,
Darcy ♥
P.S. Have Lemon and Ramsey help you with the decryption of the flash drive, and hopefully some of it will be of use in your endeavors. The only mission I'm aware of soon is Paris, but I use the servers connected to that account as a stopgap. Dump it there, comb for malicious code, then send it to Lemon. Have Ramsey dig for malicious code. Your normal birthday gift has already been ordered... feel free to open it if it arrive early. Love you Boss.
[Detailed List of Bequeaths] [Details about Darcy's Room] [Legal Documentation] [Letter for Darcy's Family] [Assorted Photographs] [A flash drive]
Maya, honey.
Sister of my heart.
I am so very sorry that I'm yet another person in your life leaving you. Please know that whatever happened... I wouldn't have done it if it wasn't important. Unless something embarrassing happened to me, but for the sake of my pride I'm going to write this like I went out either doing something extremely epic or by quietly fucking up the lives of several people worse than myself and becoming collateral in the process. Cool chicks don't look at explosions, but sometimes they have to bring the building down on their own heads. I hope whatever happened, it was worth it to have an outcome where this is read instead of shredded in March and replaced with a newer one.
I love you, and I am SO proud of the woman you're becoming. I hope I got to see you a last time. That I was able to hug you. Sign and laugh with you. If I didn't... fuck. I'm so sorry. You've grown so much from that angry, scared teen I met, and I will be watching over you. Somehow. I'll see you again someday, and when I do I'm going to give you the biggest, tightest hug I can. I promise.
Thank you for being my sister and my friend. You've got a standing invitation to go to the farm, so if you'd ever like to spend time with the rest of the family... they'd love to have you. I was hoping to take you this spring or summer, but... well. There are tickets for it - refundable or transferrable and in your name. They're yours, along with a few of my personal effects. One's that quilt my gran made, the one with the star pattern you like so much. Every time you wrap yourself in it, know that I'm hugging you. That I love you as much as if you were my own blood-kin.
I hope you have a long, full life with more joys than sorrows, and that you're able to surround yourself with people that matter, that can be your shield and comfort when you wield the sword of justice. That they give you hope for the future and a reason to keep fighting. That you find love - friends, family, romantic - and are able to take comfort in the gift of their love and support as I took comfort in yours.
If I'm dead... I've asked my family to consider you and Kevin kin per our traditions. Congratulations, you're now Maya Lewis-Lincoln-Lopez. Lincoln-Lopez Lewis? Something along those lines. Gran or Auntie will teach you any of the traditions you want to learn. If you do, mix them with your own. We're an adaptable people. Things done respectfully and with love are to be appreciated (and stars know I've never been a stickler for tradition).
Keep that beautiful thing inside you that makes you want to fight the injustices of the world and hone it into a protection for yourself and others. Stay true to yourself, and know that I will ALWAYS be proud of you. Always. No matter what.
Forever your sister,
Darcy ♥
Inez. My Sunflower.
Ah hell, sunshine. I don't even know what the fuck to say. I'm sorry. I hope I got to see you one last time. That we got to catch up, cuddle, and generally enjoy one another's company. If not, know that I regret it.
I just want you to know... I think given a little more time I would've fallen completely arse over teakettle in love with you. I definitely love you already for what you are - my friend, lover, and the sunshine in my life. The healthy friends with benefits I didn't know I was capable of having. I value your friendship. I love the sound of your laugh and the way we fit together when we cuddle. Your smile makes my days better, and every time I unlock a new piece of Inez Lore I delight in what I'm learning. Even when it's the hard stuff. I want to bask in your presence like a cat in a sunbeam. But I think if we'd had more time, it would've been more. Something deep and enduring, built on a solid foundation of tears, laughter, friendship, and mutual respect. I wish we'd had more time to try.
I hope you find that some day, because you deserve a love as wonderful as you are. Know that I'm cheering you on from wherever I am, and that I wish you long life and more joys than sorrows.
I'll always wish I'd had more time with you. You, Maya, Kevin, the rest of my family... I'll always want to be greedy and have more time with the people I care about most, and you are definitely included in that number. Never doubt that. I loved every minute we were able to have together, and I was always looking forward to having more.
I left you a few things. Kevin's got the list, but you'll get this letter first.
And listen... he likes to hold up that tough façade of his like he doesn't have feelings and shit, but could you check in on him sometimes? He needs people who care about him too, regardless of how much of a prickly cat he can be. If something happened to me on the job, I just know he'll blame himself as the person who effectively acts as my handler. I doubt it's actually his fault, he works hard to keep his assets as safe as the job allows. But he takes the losses hard.
You're a beautiful woman with an amazing soul, Sunflower. Thank you for being my ladyfriend and someone who made the world just a little better for being able to see your bright smile.
Hugs, kisses, and lots of love,
Darcy ♥
Kevin. Boss. My Darling.
Thank you. For taking me under your wing, for protecting me, for being my friend and my confidant. For kicking my ass when I needed it and always pushing me to be better, faster, more clever than my opponents. For being a surety in a very uncertain world.
I love you dearly, and I hope I got a chance to tell you that in person. I'm sure you already knew, but... well. You know how much I like to put all my cards on the table. So here they are. You started as my mentor and at some point you became my friend. My rock and compass. As our friendship deepened, so did my love for you. Platonic, then... more. What we had was enough. Is enough. More than I ever thought we'd get, and I wasn't willing to throw that away. Enough of my friendships were ruined by adding a relationship to it. I couldn't bear for that to happen with us, so I gripped what we already had with both hands and refused to let go of it. I cherish our relationship as it stands, and I'm sorry we don't get more time. That I'm another asset (and friend) gone too soon.
You probably blame yourself. I can't tell you not to, but I can tell you this: I firmly believe that you do everything in your power to keep us safe on missions. You try to place us in situations where we'll thrive and excel as often as you can. You risk your own self more than you risk us. So yeah. I can't tell you not to blame yourself, but I can tell you that even if you pulled the trigger yourself - and I know there are scenarios we talked about after Laurie where I asked you to do just that - then I trust that the choice you made was the best option. If not for me or us, then for the world at large. Whatever it was that you're taking blame for - I forgive you. I doubt I ever blamed you, but I forgive you regardless.
You're a better man than you like to say you are. Take care of yourself. Please. If not for yourself, then for me. I'd say you have a long, full life ahead of you, but you've already lived one. That doesn't mean I want to see you anytime soon, you hear me? Don't you fucking dare be reckless with your life, no matter how seemingly immortal you are. I'll find a way to kick your ass myself if you do, just watch me.
I left some of my personal effects for you and Nora, but really. You're the one handling my estate (medical, disappearance, or some wretched combination of all three) and whichever way it shook out I'm sorry that burden falls on you. So if it isn't a bequeath for someone, keep anything you want and do what you'd like for the rest. Maybe give Jubilee my outrageous footwear if they fit her. I have a few suggestions listed for some of it - mostly the more practical clothing and bedding in my possession.
My room should be dismantled, but... talk to David Haller, find out if he or his new ward could use it. It's a much cozier alternative to The Box. And well... it's nice to know you're safe when you sleep. If they can't, there are instructions for how to dismantle it without needing to rip out the drywall again. That's the packet for Parker and/or Barton. If neither of them are available, Forge's contact details are included. Or just rip out the drywall. Deconstruction is surprisingly therapeutic.
If you're able... please deliver the letter to my family in person, and hug the fam for me. Maybe whisk Gran off to Vegas for that shotgun wedding and think about my laugh when you get the chance to tell me how she wrapped you around her finger. If I'm dead... well. I hope you were able to recover my body. I've asked my family to consider you and Maya kin per our traditions. Gran agreed. You're a Lewis now too, no take-backsies!
One day we'll meet again. I have faith in that, and I have faith in you.
Always,
Darcy ♥
P.S. Have Lemon and Ramsey help you with the decryption of the flash drive, and hopefully some of it will be of use in your endeavors. The only mission I'm aware of soon is Paris, but I use the servers connected to that account as a stopgap. Dump it there, comb for malicious code, then send it to Lemon. Have Ramsey dig for malicious code. Your normal birthday gift has already been ordered... feel free to open it if it arrive early. Love you Boss.
[Detailed List of Bequeaths] [Details about Darcy's Room] [Legal Documentation] [Letter for Darcy's Family] [Assorted Photographs] [A flash drive]
