To: [uncle pete, manuel]
CC: [nate, moira, angelo, shinobi, sarah, marie-ange, doug.]
From: [amanda]
I'm catching a cab out to Strange's place tonight - I just finished talking to him and he thinks it's best if I get the hell out of here for the night, considering Illyana's mates coming back this afternoon and the fact that everyone's sticking their fucking head in the sand and not giving a rat's about the fact we've got the fucking Queen of Limbo living in the house. But no, I'm just being prejudiced and intolerant, demon-phobic even. So let the fucking wankers deal with it, I'm fed up.
I was just going to get the hell out and doss down in a hotel or something for the night, but Strange seems to think I need watching. Considering the fact I've been too scared to sleep since Nate's whammy wore off, he might have a point. Least if I go off the deep end he can shut me down just as well as Nate or the prof.
I swear, I think I'm going fucking balmy. It never lets up, does it?
Be back tomorrow sometime, when my head's back on straight. Or as straight as it gets.
A.
CC: [nate, moira, angelo, shinobi, sarah, marie-ange, doug.]
From: [amanda]
I'm catching a cab out to Strange's place tonight - I just finished talking to him and he thinks it's best if I get the hell out of here for the night, considering Illyana's mates coming back this afternoon and the fact that everyone's sticking their fucking head in the sand and not giving a rat's about the fact we've got the fucking Queen of Limbo living in the house. But no, I'm just being prejudiced and intolerant, demon-phobic even. So let the fucking wankers deal with it, I'm fed up.
I was just going to get the hell out and doss down in a hotel or something for the night, but Strange seems to think I need watching. Considering the fact I've been too scared to sleep since Nate's whammy wore off, he might have a point. Least if I go off the deep end he can shut me down just as well as Nate or the prof.
I swear, I think I'm going fucking balmy. It never lets up, does it?
Be back tomorrow sometime, when my head's back on straight. Or as straight as it gets.
A.
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Date: 2004-10-10 03:44 pm (UTC)From: (Angie)
Subject: ...
I am not sure if you can check this at Dr. Stange's or not. If you cannot, I will probably have said this in person.
I think people are overcompensating, but M. Beaubier's sister is -insane-, and I do not mean metaphorically. He said she was not well, remember? Do not listen to her. and Kitty is just in a bad, bad mood. She yelled at me too, and she never uses words like that.
But we have let too many other people with bad pasts here to not give Illyana the benefit of the doubt, even if she did lie. Nathan, M. Wisdom, Piotr, even if he was a pillock. Perhaps the Professor has talked to her? I do not know, but ..
I would rather have her here where people like the Professor and our teachers can watch her than out in Russia where she can turn into Baba Yaga.
~Marie-Ange
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Date: 2004-10-10 04:42 pm (UTC)From: [evilbagpipelady]
Hey you. Don't bother grabbing a cab on your way back, okay? I'll come and get you. After all of this, I need some time away from the mansion grounds. We'll grab lunch or something. Works?
~Moira
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Date: 2004-10-10 05:36 pm (UTC)From: [big brother]
It's funny how much emptier this place feels when I know certain people aren't in it. We'll hold down the fort for you, luv, I promise.
Come see me for a hug and some tea, after you're back and have had a chance to see your boy, hey? My dinosaurs and I miss you already.
-Shinobi
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Date: 2004-10-10 07:40 pm (UTC)From: [worried anyways]
Subject: Re: So you don't worry...
Hope you're doing okay. I'm worried about you, especially after hearing the crashing noises the other night. Not to mention Alison told me just enough about whatever happened with Remy to worry me even more. As regards Kit and Jamie...I dunno. I wish I knew what to tell you there.
Hell, I wish I knew what to say to everyone about this whole mess. I hate seeing my friends upset.
-Doug
Re: ..
Date: 2004-10-10 10:01 pm (UTC)From: [trouble]
You people just aren't getting it, are you?
This isn't the same as having a dodgy past. Limbo isn't like the Mafia, or Mistra, or any human agency. It's a fucking _hell dimension_, and what you find in hell is evil. Illyana's story about being rescued early on by whoever it is this week and never growing up with Belasco (tht's the bastard who took her, by the way) is a lie. She was raised by a demon lord, taught magic by a demon lord, used in fuck knows what kind of rituals. By a demon lord.
And I know, pot paging kettle. But the difference between me and Illyana is that Rack was _human_. A fucked up beyond belief sadistic arsehole, but human. He didn't have the power to corrupt my soul - that's why he had to bring a demon into the mix to do it. Those scars on my legs? A souvenier from that nutcases cute little fuzzy demon friends.
Belasco had more than enough power to corrupt Illyana, make her something other than human. I didn't see her on the lawn on Saturday, which is probably a good thing since I'd be half-way back to Rom by now, but if I had, I'd be able to tell, one way or the other, whether Illyana's still human or whether she's demon. So I'm giving her that small benefit of the doubt. But either way, she's dangerous, she lied, and her lies put us - put the little kids, for Christs' sake, including Miles - in more danger than some thugs with guns.
Perhaps the school is the best place for her. But I'm sick of being put in danger because Xavier's a soft touch and believes everyone can be saved. At the very least we should know what we're dealing with here. I'm sorry she got hurt, but that doesn't change the situation. Hurt or not, she's still apparently the ruler of Limbo, and that scares the fuck out of me.
I'll be back this afternoon - Strange has classes and stuff to get ready. I'll talk to you then.
A.
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Date: 2004-10-10 10:09 pm (UTC)From: [gloaming]
Fuck, got this too late - Strange already dropped me off. Tomorrow, if you're not busy? I'm going through my journal and I'm going to need another sanity break, looks like, before I try and put Paul's crazy sister's head through a portal to a demon dimension just so she can see what the fuck she doesn't know she's talking about.
A.
Sounds good
Date: 2004-10-10 11:44 pm (UTC)From: [mei mei]
Thanks, Shinobi. How's Monday night sound? I'm kind of being monopolised right now by a certain boyfriend who doesn't deal with demons that well at all. Funny how an empath reacts to something without human emotions, ain't it? Or not, as the case might be.
I haven't been sleeping, tho' - if I get the wanders, can I come by?
A.
Friday night
Date: 2004-10-10 11:52 pm (UTC)From: [too much trouble]
I dunno if anyone's said much - probably not, considering this place - but I'm okay from the other night. Had a grand scale, up-to-eleven on the volume freakout, trashed Manny's room with the magic and nearly put Remy through the wall, but I'm all right. One of the reasons Strange wanted me there was so he could help me get my balance back, and the Prof went into me head on Saturday morning as well.
What happened? Pretty much Remy and I had words, he went crazy and shoved me up against the wall screaming at me in German, I think it was. The whole thing was way too much like Rack for me to handle and I lost it. Blasted him across the room, did the shielding thing, and ran. I was hysterical by all accounts when Manny found me, kept thinking everyone was Rack adn trying to hurt me, and it took him and Nate to knock me out for a while so I didn't hurt anyone or myself.
So that was Friday night. And then Saturday we get a visit from Illyana's friends. Can you see why I'm a bit upset by that? I've been having screaming nightmares about that binding spell, among other things, and now I have peopel telling me demons aren't evil, they're just misunderstood. Tell that to the scars on my legs.
Thanks for worrying, Doug. Sorry to make you. If you want to tell Angie what happened (if I don't see her first), feel free. In fact, feel free to tell anyone. Wouldn't want to be accused of keeping secrets now, would I? And yeah, I have been reading the journals, what makes you ask?
A.
Re: Sounds good
Date: 2004-10-11 01:12 am (UTC)If you get the wanders, you can, sure. I'm not sleeping too hot, either, and I wouldn't mind the company at all.
-Shinobi
Re: Sounds good
Date: 2004-10-11 01:47 am (UTC)A.
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Date: 2004-10-11 03:50 am (UTC)-Shinobi