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To: [Alex]
From: [Scott]
Subject: question

Possibly one you won't want to answer, but I had this conversation with Lorna last night and now I just can't get it out of my head.

If she was to come to you down the line, once she's had more time to recover, and tell you she wanted to wear leathers again, what would your reaction be? Just a hypothetical.

Scott

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To:[Scott]
From: [Alex]
Subject: Re:question

I should have known this was coming.

The same as it was before. I don't like it, but I will support whatever she decides. You two have the hero complex, not me.

What did you do?

--Alex

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All I know is that she's very obviously not as sure about quitting as she claims to be, but one of the two major reasons she gives for sticking to it is because she promised you she would quit. I know you didn't ask her for that promise - she told me that, too - but I doubt you were too distraught at getting it, were you?

Hero complex... are you listening to yourself? Alex, half the time I think you think that we go off gallivanting around the world for fun when we put on the leathers. You say you support it, but what you're really doing is just not protesting aloud.

Scott

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She never promised me that...not to the point I actually believed her.

But no, I was not distraught to hear it. Excuse me if I took some relief in knowing that one of the two people I love most isn't going to go off on missions that could very well get them killed. I don't know about you, but losing our parents was enough for me, thanks.

I know you don't. Please. I may talk funny but don't insult me. I know you don't go gallavanting off for fun, but I still don't have to like it.

What do you want me to say? It would fall on deaf ears anyway.

--Alex

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This is not me trying to re-recruit Lorna. All I want is for her to make the choice that's best for her, and to make an informed choice. I don't want her deciding two years down the line that she resents you because she convinced herself that she was giving this up for your sake. I want the two of you to be happy.

I'm not insulting you, and I'm not expecting you to like me or Lorna putting ourselves in danger. But dislike that, Alex. Don't dislike what we do. I've felt for a while now that you don't see the good we do, that you just see the risks we run. Maybe part of that is that you don't know the details of what we do. That's fair enough, I suppose, but I'm getting damned sick of you backing away and mouthing pro forma words of support every time the matter comes up.

Scott

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Thank you, but for some reason...No, I agree. She needs to make the best choice for her. But don't push her into a decision either. She doesn't work like that, if you push...she'll resent us both and find some third choice that is good for no one. And there is no pushing from my end either, before you worrying. This is her choice, I won't interfere with it.

I think your mistaking not liking for not caring. I don't care what it is you do. You could be terrorists and I would still only truely and deeply hate the fact your going into danger. I don't care about details. Our family is small enough damnit.

Again, what do you want me say? To talk either of you out of it? What good would that do anyone? You both know I hate it, but, I will support whatever decision you make.

--Alex

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Fine. I'm sorry I asked; I think I would have preferred to keep thinking that you just didn't understand, rather than finding out that it's a question of not caring.

Just do me a favor. Someday - not today, not tomorrow, not necessarily even six months from now - ask your fiancee how many lives she's saved, and how that makes her feel. I think the answer might be educational.

Scott