Emails to Charles, Ororo, Alison; Sam; Logan; Bobby

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To: [Charles], [Ororo], [Alison]
From: [Scott]
Subject: I need to get out of here...

Funny that it should take Logan throwing me into a wall to hammer that home, but hell, it worked. Trying to ride this out here is not going to work, and it's not-working to the extent that I'm not managing to do either of my jobs properly just now. I don't want to get into the position where I quite literally can't, not again, and that's where I'm headed unless I take a step back here.

So I'm going to go to Phillip and Deborah's for a week. I'll make sure I've made arrangements for my classes before I go, draw up individual assignments and the like. Alison, Ororo, you've already been covering for me but if there's anything I can do before I go to make covering for me for a week longer easier, let me know.

I just have to do this. I'm on the phone with the airline and there's a flight tonight, so I'm going to book myself a seat. This is probably the worst example imaginable to the kids - how many times do we tell them they're not supposed to run away from their problems? - but I'm going to be no good to anyone unless I get my head together.


Scott

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To: [Sam]
From: [Scott]
Subject: going away for a bit...

I'm going to be with my grandparents in Alaska for a week; I'm leaving tonight. I'm guessing you can probably imagine why, and are likely one of the many people who think that this probably would have been a good idea a week ago. (There seem to be a large number of you.)

I've not been keeping on top of things particularly well this last month, I know. You've been covering for me more than you should have. Hopefully the time away will clear my head a little and this'll all change when I get back. I certainly intend it to.

-S.

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To: [Logan]
From: [Scott]
Subject: set you up a new email address...

... and reset all your staff accesses, since you're teaching again. Yes, I did hear you when you said that. The conversation wasn't all about me trying to break my hand on your jaw.

Talk to 'Ro or Al about the team stuff; I've got too much to do today before I leave. I'll be in Alaska for the week. Feel free to comment on me running away to lick my wounds but I think it's about time I stopped pretending they weren't there.

-S

PS: Make sure you fill up the bike.

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To: [Bobby]
From: [Scott]
Subject: to let you know...

... before you hear it from someone else and jump to the worst possible conclusions, I'm leaving - for the week. I'll be at my grandparents' place in Alaska.

I won't lie and say this has nothing to do with you, Bobby, but it isn't all about you. It isn't even all about that damned tape, or whatever whoever did to me on the weekend. It's more about the consequences of all of those things, and dealing with them.

I need some time away, so that I can come back. You know, I'm not even sure why I'm writing this email to you, except that I know how your mind works, and I didn't want you descending any further into guilt thinking you'd chased me out. I know this is a retreat, but it's my retreat - you don't get to take any of the credit for it.

- S.