Emails to Pietro, Forge, Julio, Angel, Kyle, Amanda and Lorna

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Pietro]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Visiting]

Pietro,

Medusa told me of your visit while I was in the Medlab. Thank you. I am still a bit out of sorts at the moment but I just wanted to let you know that I really appreciate the fact that you came to visit. It means a lot to me.

People have written bits and pieces of what happened on the journals, but as Mr. Haller alluded to this afternoon, the essence of the fictional world we found ourselves in was that there were no mutants. Not even one, and to top that, mutants had never existed in the first place. Basically, for a time, we were not mutants and did not have access to our powers.

It was horrible.

Crystal




To: [Forge]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Dreamworld]

Forge,

What happened in the dreamworld was not real. It felt real, but it was not. Seriously, that was not me. That was some sort of theoretical me that might have been had I been born into a world without mutants. However, as that is not truly the case, that person does not exist. I can still remember what she thought, how she felt and reacted to situations… but please do not confuse her words and actions with mine.

Oh, and by the way, I do not recall ever asking anyone to call me “Princess.” I simply said that I was, and in that world-gone-wrong, I was a princess. And really, so what if I had a boyfriend?

Crystal




To: [Julio]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Creativity]

Julio,

The Crystal who cursed in the dreamworld was not me. That was a Crystal who might have been had my entire life been different. I am horrified at the way I acted in the dreamworld and do not really want people to mistake those words and actions as mine. It is hard enough for me to deal with them without worrying that the people who witnessed them will mistake them for words and actions of my own choosing.

Was it really necessary to advertise the atrocious words and actions that were done by someone who was not really me? Perhaps others find them funny; I do not.

Crystal




To: [Angel]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Dream Crystal]

Angel,

I would like to apologize for my horrible words and horrific actions on the plane in the dreamworld. Please understand that that was not me. I am sorry for fighting and using such horrid words in front of you and for making you afraid that I was going to shoot you. Please know that I would never really say such words to anyone and that at the time there was really little else my dreamworld counterpart could do. After all, you did all board her plane stating that you really needed to touch her.

For future reference, "Hi, we just kind of need to touch you for a second” is really not a statement that should be said to anyone under any sort of circumstance.

Crystal




To: [Kyle]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Checking In]

Kyle,

If your words on the journal are any indication, you seem much happier now than you have in the past week or so. I am very glad to see this. I hope that the notes I gave you on Monday were acceptable.

Crystal




To: [Amanda]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Talk]

Amanda,

Thank you for coming to speak with me this afternoon. I must admit, I was a bit wary at first, but I am glad that I was able to speak with you about some of my concerns regarding the events that occurred during the dreamworld.

By the way, the next time you want to go on a field trip, I am willing to accompany you. Hopefully, we will not run into any would-be-supervillains this time.

Crystal




To: [Dane, Lorna]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Discussion]

Ms. Dane,

I would like to have the chance to speak with you in person about certain events that transpired both in the real world and the dreamworld. I hope that you are aware of the fact that I would never actually say such foul and cruel things to you and, clearly, I would not have attacked you the first time had I known who you were. As for the second time, well, it was unfortunately quite necessary.

Can we still use the “don’t blame me, blame the seagull” excuse now?

Crystal

Comments

Reply to Crystal

[x-forge.livejournal.com]

To: [Amaquelin, C.]
From: [Forge, JH]
Subject: Dreamworld

I'm aware it was nothing but a psychological construct based off our own interpretations of what our life would most likely be like without mutants. Once in my right mind in that constructed world, I simply found it amusing that you referred to yourself as 'Princess', when here you quite adamantly prefer your correct title, and tend to respond to 'Princess' with a great deal of consternation.

To clarify, I was not meaning to mock you, merely note the irony of the situation. In a constructed reality where the laws of reason and logic did not seem to hold sway, I felt that the only reasonable alternative was to be wholly unreasonable, which seemed to work in the framework we were provided.

As for your fictional boyfriend, I was simply amused again at the differences - you have always been fastidious about keeping such relationships, or the lack thereof, out of common discussion. I both respect and envy that ability. Despite common opinion, not everyone here enjoys the gossip network.

I am, however, glad to be back to reality.

JHF

[x-polarisstar.livejournal.com]

To: [Amaquelin, Crystal]
From: [Dane, Lorna]

Crystal,

Certainly we can speak about what happened. I'm not sure what we'll say--it was all just a dream. We've no lingering bruises. I don't hold you responsible for any of it--you were just reacting to the world around you after all. Nevertheless, if it would make you feel better, I'm more than happy to spend as much time as you like discussing it. I think you have my schedule? It should be in your syllabus.

Lorna

[x-wildchild.livejournal.com]

To: [Crystal]
From: [Kyle]
Subject: [Re: Checking In]

I'm in a much better mood than I was. Our adventures in freakish dream land reminded me that even with all the crazy weirdness-magnet that being a mutant means, it's way better then where I was before. It's a lot easier to appriciate what I am and what I can do when it's taken away from me for a while.

The notes were better then acceptable. 9.5 on the awesome and complete notes-o-meter. Thank you. And - since I was kind of a general grumpy jerk to everyone for a couple of days, I'm sorry about that. I can explain if you want, but it's probably better explained in person.

Reply to Crystal

[xp_daytripper]

To: [crystal]
From: [amanda]

Subject: Re: Talk

Like I said, any time. I like to keep an eye on the people I like.

And thanks for the vote of confidence. We'll see how the bus trips go first, yeah? But I meant it about field trips - we've got to catch a break sometimes, and I'm buggered if you lot don't get the chance to have what everyone else takes for granted.

A.

[x-ccelerate.livejournal.com]

To: {Crystal}
From: {Pietro}
Subject: Re: Visiting

I am not quite so blasé as I often try to appear, and when one of my good friends falls into a sudden unexplained coma I . . . worry. I'm very glad to hear that you're all right.

I can't imagine what life would be like in such a world. This one is much better.

[x-rictor.livejournal.com]

to: [Amaquelin, C]
from: [Richter, J]

Crystal,

I understand that the girl we first met was not you. Have you heard of the saying "Laugh so you do not cry?"

I was in a world where the worst thing I had ever done had not happened. Perhaps you can consider that yours was not the only unpleasant experience.

-J

Reply to Forge

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Forge]
From: [Lady Crystal]
Subject: [Unreal]

Forge,

I would never have wanted my life to be that way. My parents assassinated along with Medusa? No thank you. Cursing and speaking in such a vile way to people (even people who seemed quite crazy) is not a way I would ever want to be.

You are quite mistaken about my title. If you remember correctly, I actually made the request for people to refrain from referring to me by my proper title. Although people do not seem to realize this, I have made attempts to, as you would say, "fit in," just not in the ways that other people seem to require.

You want my full name and title? I am Lady Crystal Lia Amaquelin and I am proud of this fact. However, I realize that asking people to call me that, or even call me Lady Crystal, would not serve any benefit. Instead, I asked that I only be referred to by my first name. However, apparenly people missed that journal entry and think that I have always wanted to be called "Lady Crystal." Fine. Go for it. Would you like me to call you Mr. Forge?

In the "other world" I was a princess, which is why I said I was. My parents had died, the Boltagons had adopted me.... I was Lady Crystal no longer and had become Princess Crystal. It is quite possible that I will be a princess one day, but for now, I am quite happy with being Lady Crystal Amaquelin.

Keeping certain facts away from other people can sometimes be a necessity, and other times it just ends up happening. Not advertising something does not necessarily mean that it something a person is trying to keep hidden; somethings just cannot be said easily, or perhaps simply do not come up in conversation. Just randomly throwing in a bit of information that might surprise people could come off as completely random and end up making little sense.

Lady Crystal Amaquelin

Reply to Lorna

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Dane, Lorna]
From: [Amaquelin, Crystal]

Yes, it was just a dream... but at least some of the feelings felt there were real. Surely you would not have reacted to the dreamworld version of me in the way you did if you had not been any preexisting negative feelings about me.

I will come speak with you soon.

Crystal

Reply to Kyle

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Kyle]
From: [Crystal]

Kyle,

I am glad that your mood has greatly improved and that you are now able to appreciate who and what you are. Maybe we can meet some time this week if you would like to tell me about your previous non-improved mood.

Crystal

Reply to Amanda

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Amanda]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Field trip]

Amanda,

I think I have had my fill of weekends at Xavier's for now. I know that there is supposed to be an ice climbing trip, and if that occurs on a weekend, I will be there. Other than that, I plan on leaving New York and visiting other cities during the next few months. However, if there will be a special bus trip or another field trip, please let me know and I will be certain to attend.

Crystal

Reply to Pietro

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Pietro]
From: [Crystal]

Pietro,

I know. Still, thank you for braving the Medlab in order to see me. Please do me a favor and do not end up needing to spend time in the Medlab yourself. Really, it is quite a silly, unnecessary rite of passage for Xavier's residents to undergo. I have only been here for less than eight months and I have witnessed far too many people requiring stays there.

That other world, the dreamworld if you will, ended up being quite nonsensical and chaotic. I am assuming that you have read the journals regarding the "events" that transpired during the shared dream. Most of what people wrote about it is true although some details were altered a bit. I can still remember what it was like to be that other me who wasn't really me... it is been quite disorienting and I am staying in Medusa's room for the time being.

Yes, this world is much better than the other one. Unfortunately, not everyone feels that way.

Crystal

Reply to Julio

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Julio]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Not laughing]

Julio,

Fine. If you think what I said and did was so funny, go ahead and laugh. When I can, I prefer to deal with situations as they arise, not push them to the side and allow them to fester. I have done this, and what this does, in my opinion, is make things worse.

My way of dealing with things seems to be different from the way most people here choose to deal with things. I do not feel that the way I acted before I remembered was amusing at all and therefore I will not treat it in a humorous fashion.

Crystal

[x-ccelerate.livejournal.com]

To: {Crystal}
From: {Pietro}
Subject: Re: Visiting

Oh, I certainly don't plan on it. Fortunately I've yet to encounter a virus that itself possesses super-speed, and I don't often injure myself to the point of needing hospital-level care.

As a consensus reality created by a group of Xavier students and hosted in the mind of a lunatic--however functional he might normally be--I'm not surprised it was a surreal experience for you. Again, I'm very thankful you made it out largely unscathed.

Though, speaking of things to be thankful for . . . I've recently concluded some side business with the government, the upshot of which is that this week I have a reprieve from my house arrest. Would you care to join me for dinner in the city one of these nights to celebrate both our freedoms? My treat, of course, although if you have a restaurant you particularly favor I'll be happy to entertain the suggestion. It's been some time since I've been able to properly dine out.

[x-aerial.livejournal.com]

To: [Pietro]
From: [Crystal]
Subject: [Re: Visiting]

Pietro,

Hopefully no one will decide to create a virus that possesses super-speed. I have not required a hospital stay or an emergency doctor’s visit for many years. This past weekend does not count as it was a group event that actually had nothing to do with me.

A group dream of a world where mutants never existed but everyone took the advice of a talking seagull. Truly a horrifying experience.

This week only? Do you get to have the ankle bracelet removed? Will you have to allow them to put it back on after the week is over? There’s no reason for it anyway; you chose to come to Xavier’s and turn yourself in.

I have not tried many of the restaurants here. The students’ taste in fine dining generally seems limited to fast food and hot dog stands. The best place to eat is decided by determining which vendor serves the best hot dog. In other words, you get to choose the restaurant, and portable carts or places specializing in processed foods do not count.

Crystal

[x-ccelerate.livejournal.com]

To: {Crystal}
From: {Pietro}
Subject: Re: Visiting

I don't think viruses have a complex enough genetic structure to support X-factor mutation, thankfully.

The bracelet is removed, in fact, but yes, it gets put back on at the end of the week. I completely agree that it's unnecessary, but for some reason the federal authorities don't find themselves willing to take a former terrorist's word without some kind of insurance. And--not that I'll admit I ever said this--from their perspective, it makes a kind of sense; I must look like the kind of flight risk they never even thought to have nightmares about.

After all the pains this city has taken to develop a culinary reputation, the best your classmates care to manage is street-corner hot dogs? That's pathetic, and we can certainly do better. I'll see if I can arrange a table at Le Bernardin or Per Se, and perhaps if there are leftovers you can let them smell what real food is supposed to be like.