Email to Adrienne

[x-dominion.livejournal.com]

to: [Frost, Adrienne]
from: [Kaen, Garrison]

So, apparently Wade is trying to celebrate fake! American Thanksgiving by serving everyone a pound of deep fried meat. Seeing as tofurkey was off the menu, I wondered if you wanted to have dinner in the city that night? I know a good Thai place that does all kinds of vegetarian stuff to satisfy your perverse no-meat habit.

--Garrison

PS: Sorry about Saturday. Like Forge said, million to one glitch in the system. I swear that I'm actually cursed or something, eh?

Comments

[x-adrienne.livejournal.com]

from: [Frost, Adrienne]
to: [Kane, Garrison]

Thursday? Sorry, I can't. I have a meeting with my Narcotics Anonymous sponsor Thursday. I bought some coke Saturday night and even though I flushed it without using any of it, I'll be getting some help, going to some meetings for the next little while.

A.

PS: No worries. I thought it was well-established that you're actually cursed? You are a Jays fan after all...

[x-dominion.livejournal.com]

Wait, what? You what?

[x-adrienne.livejournal.com]

from: [Frost, Adrienne]
to: [Kane, Garrison]

If you want to talk about this in person, I don't want you to think I'm avoiding you. I'm just assuming you're in the city at the office this morning and I've only got a few minutes between classes. At the same time, I didn't want you to wonder if I was putting off replying because I was afraid or ashamed to tell you.

When I got drunk on saturday I bought an eight-ball in the Zeitgeist washroom. I wish I could tell you why but I guess that goes with the territory of being an addict- I don't even have a reason. I've been clean for fifteen years now and I'm not about to mess that up even by dangling a foot off the wagon, so I'm going to support group meetings and talking with a sponsor to shore up my coping mechanisms to make sure it doesn't happen again.

[x-dominion.livejournal.com]

to: [Frost, Adrienne]
from: [Kane, Garrison]

No, you don't need to explain it to me. I understand. I just never realized that when you were talking about your party years, it went that far. Let me know if I can help somehow?

Otherwise, you know, I'll be here.

--Garrison

[x-adrienne.livejournal.com]

from: [Frost, Adrienne]
to: [Kane, Garrison]

Thanks, that means a lot, knowing I don't need to explain it because you understand. I appreciate the offer to help. For the next little while, since I'm not ingesting anything mood-altering that may act as a gateway, I think the best thing for me is to be sticking to a very narrowly-focused routine of work, support meetings, and the gym, without a lot of socializing in public places (which according to my sponsor is not the same as hiding from the world or my life, it's just giving myself time to build my defense mechanisms back up to a place where I feel confident doing things I used to, like drinking.) She thinks that will help right now and I can't find flaw in her logic so that's the plan for the immediate future.

I really do appreciate knowing you're here and that you want to help. That means much more than I can articulate. Thank you.

A.