(E-mail to Nate)

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To: [Teach]

From: [model student]

Subject:

Hey,

Ain't seen you around much lately, an well, when you are you're not exactly looking carefree and bushy tailed. Of course, there's a half dozen people probably already making sure you're eating and all that jazz but thought I'd ping you anyhow.

I left those assignments on your desk, ahead of schedule even. (Yes, the library late at night seems to be conductive for getting things done. Who'd have thought?) That's actually where I am now, the library that is.

So...you okay?

~J.

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Reply to Jubilee

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I'm okay, Jubilee. Just have a lot going on - then again, when do I not? If I didn't have half a dozen things to worry about the world would probably stop turning.

I found the assignments when I got in this morning; just glanced them over and they look pretty good. It's good to see you experimenting with avoiding the last-minute all-nighters.

Nathan

Re: Reply to Jubilee

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Mostly I just want a choice at the end of finals when I'm figuring out where to go next.

I wouldn't have much choice if I got horrible marks. (Least, that's the excuse I'm giving my brain when it protests all the facts I'm cramming into it right now.)

Dude, I so want a trip to the beach. I crave the beach, and actual sunlight. May take a trip out to California once this finals thing is all over, take a few days to visit every tourist trap between here and Cali, and then lie around on the beach for a whole bunch of time.

Hank did say he'd let me drive his blue car...wonder if he'd let me drive it all the way to Cali if I took him with.

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Well, you never know unless you ask. The beach does sound nice, though...

N

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Um...I kinda got no real way of asking this diplomatically. So, guess I gotta say, take this in the curious and trying to understand way it's meant, rather then me prying where I'm not meant to.

So, we're studying the great wars, right? And I've got the history books here in front of me, and I'm actually reading through them. (Dude, so interesting once you really sit down and read. Especially all the little personal account thingies.)

So, you were a mercenary, right? I guess I'm asking for a personal opinion then, from someone whose been involved in fighting. (Although, not sure if you've ever been involved in the war type thing but anyway.)

Why'd they do it? I mean, you'd think after the first great war someone would have sat back and thought 'violence on a massive scale = bad...and also = destructive and hard to recover from.'

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Because human nature is human nature, and politicians are politicians. That's the short answer. You look to one for the willingness to fight and to the other for the ability to fuck things up so completely that fighting seems like the only feasible answer.

N

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And this would be the truly personal part of the question then. Why'd you become a mercenary? I mean, I know what Mistra did to you. I'm not sure if you were like that after you got out and I guess I don't actually know if you even had a choice but if you did, then why did you choose to fight for money?

J.

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Why I'm answering this, I don't know...

Because I was good at it. Because I was messed up enough after getting away from Mistra that part of me really liked the idea of using the skills they'd taught me to... defy them, I guess.

And because I was angry and I just wanted to blow shit up and kill people.

That answer the question?

N

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Yeah, it did. Sorry if I'm poking at bits that don't want poking. I've been doing that whole 'trying not to be a jerk' thing lately. But, I've been thinking and reading and I just needed to ask.

...Do you think I could've gone that way?

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No. Or at least not successfully.

N

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*grins* As much as I probably should do the indignant 'I can be bad ass if I want to be' teenage screech. Well, you just made my day really, so I won't.

It's kinda nice to know if I ever did somehow go bad that I wouldn't be terribly effective at it.

~J.