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To: Scott
From: Hank



I'm sorry, Scott. For seeming to disregard your not inconsiderable contribution yesterday, and for... well. Everything. Including whatever it was that made our conversation so awkward last time we spoke.

I suppose some of my current fretting comes of my incipient parenthood... every parent, I think, is overcome at some point by an urge to hastily perfect the world before their child enters it. And since the school is my world... well. My frustrations with having my attempts to help or even talk to the students repeatedly shoved aside with gratuitous rudeness came to a peak. Especially since the painful situation for the psis yesterday has given me cause to worry even more.

I will, very soon, have an infant to care for, one who will almost certainly have psionic powers... and who may, having been sensitized by contact with other psis in utero, begin showing signs of his or her abilities much earlier than adolescence. And there is no way to explain something like this to an infant or a small child, nor to explain the use of an inhibiting device, since suddenly not sensing anyone would probably be almost as distressing as sensing turmoil.

I'm not sure how I'm going to handle this, Scott. But I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings in my own annoyance and worry.

-Hank

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Apology accepted, Hank, and I hope you'll accept mine. I could have handled things much better.

But you have to remember, Hank, that you can't force help, or insight on the kids. You can offer, but taking it personally when they refuse it, even if they push it away, doesn't do anything except burn you out fast.

I wish I had something helpful to suggest about the baby. I hope you're talking to Charles about it, and perhaps to Nathan and Moira when they return - they're both facing a very similar possibility. But I can't help but remember what Charles has said to me in the past, about the possibilities of raising a psi in a good environment, fully aware of their powers and able to address their special needs right from the beginning, rather than having to repair damage done by their environment during manifestation.

Maybe you need to try and focus on those possibilities as much as on the worries.

Scott