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From: de Guzeman, Manuel
To: Sefton, Amanda; Pryde, Katherine; Colbert, Marie-Ange; Moonstar, Danielle; Summers, Alex;
CC: Xavier, Charles; Samson, Leonard
Importance: HIGH
Subject: I have a problem


And it's very, very serious.

I've been in consultation with Charles, and he has helped me to realize something very, very important. Marie-Ange brought it to my attention.

I have a ... problem, with the way I See. It is very hard to explain, but from what Professor Xavier tells me I am having significant difficulty seeing any emotion that sane people would label as positive or beneficial.

The bad stuff? Jumps out at me right away. Anger, fear, depression, jealousy - these are quick. Easy. Familiar to me. I see them easily.

Things like hope? Pleasure? Love? Friendship? These should be just as simple to see, just as easy, but they're not. I can completely miss them and not even realize that they are _there_.

I ... felt all of you should know, as the few people here whom I can legitimately call a friend. Or, in Amanda's case, more than that.

I'm not asking for forgiveness, and I'm not trying to excuse anything at all. But I need help.

Desperately.

And I don't know how to fix it.

I'm working with Charles and Dr Samson, and will be for the foreseeable future. All I can ask, all I -dare- ask from any of you is patience. Understanding. Tolerate my bad moods, my suspicious nature. I need for all of you to be there for me, when I have been so terrible at being there for you.

Please.

There is one other thing that I must ask. I must ask that this not become common knowledge. It is difficult enough for me to come to all of you like this. I do not believe that I could handle such an outpouring from the rest of the students here.

Manuel

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Subject: ...

[xp_daytripper]

To: [Manuel]
From: [Amanda]

That's... fuck. That makes sense, in a scary way. Explains a hell of a lot of things. Makes other things easier to understand.

I'm there for you love, that goes without saying. If there's anything I can do to help - maybe something with the link? - let me know.

I love you. That goes without saying too.

Amanda.

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To: (Manuel)
From: (Marie-Ange)
Subject: Help.

That certainly explains a great deal, and I wish that it was not true - though, I am glad that you perhaps have a reason now, and that you can start fixing the problem.

I am not sure what I can do to help besides be patient, but if you need something specific, please let me know. I will do whatever I can.

I will do my best to keep this to myself, however, as you are well aware, Doug will likely easily discover that I have a secret. He did discover Adam, after all.

P.S. Adam has flowers. Did you notice?
P.P.S. I like your new choice of last name. It suits you.

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From: Manuel
To: Marie-Ange
Subject: Yeah, I'm getting that a lot.

Which surprises the hell out of me.

Adam has flowers? I haven't checked on him in a few days - if he has flowers, that might mean he's a viable specimen! We need to collect pollen ASAP!

Did you tell Doug about Adam?

And to get back to the original issue - I don't know. We have had some rough patches, you and I, but for all that I still consider you a friend. Just - keep this in mind the next time I decide to be a complete ass?

Manuel

PS - It was my mother's name.

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To: (Manuel)
From: (Marie-Ange)

Adam has a few tiny flowers. And I collected some already. I need your help on some of the details of the project paper, since I do not entirely understand how to document everything we did.

Doug found out about Adam all on his own. He is perceptive and has a gift for telling when people have secrets, and doubly so for me. He and I are close, you may have noticed.

The next time you decide to be an ass, I will do what I have done the last few times. Tell you, and then give you coffee. It seems to help.

P.S. Then doubly suitable that you are choosing to honor her and her family.

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To: [Manuel]
From: [the kitten]
Subject: Re: I have a problem

Jeeze, Manuel, that's really, really rough. I don't know what I can do, but please know that if there is anything I will.

And don't worry, I won't tell.

-Kitty

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To [Manuel]
From [Alex]

My offer still stand from before. Anything I can do to help dude...anything for a friend.

--Alex