xp_communication | Late-night IM convo between Doug and Angie

Xtarot signed on at Sun Mar 14 10:00:59 2004.
Xtarot: *looks*
Xtarot: Doug?
CypherDoug: Angie?
Xtarot: Merde. Guess you are not there, or this isn't working. Stupid IM program!
CypherDoug: ANGIE!
Xtarot: Oh. HEY! You are here!
CypherDoug: *tackle*
Xtarot: I have been tackled. That's a football thing, yes?
CypherDoug: Well, yes. Although in my case it's more a 'really miss you and incredibly happy to see you online' thing.
Xtarot: You miss me?
CypherDoug: Um, file under 'duuuuuuuh'.
Xtarot: *files*
Xtarot: You are so terribly silly.
Xtarot: England is cold, wet and dark. Although the dark part is because it is nighttime.
CypherDoug: Yes. Yes I am. And I am even more so when my one of my best friends, whom I miss terribly, gets online.
Xtarot: You are going to make me blush.
Xtarot: I miss you too.
CypherDoug: Aw, I didn't mean to make you blush. Although you're cute when you blush.
Xtarot: It is nice to be missed.
CypherDoug: Glad to be of service then, mon cherie.
Xtarot: Mon cherie? Have you been spending time around Remy again?
CypherDoug: Um, no. Just, y'know, random French expression. You _are_ dear to me. Oh, and right, he says that all the time. Um, sorry.
*scuffs foot*
Xtarot: It is okay. Remy is not someone I am angry with. It was not his fault.
CypherDoug: I know, but still, I didn't mean to remind you of all that.
*hugs*
Xtarot: *hugs also*
Xtarot: Just hearing his name will not make me get that upset.
CypherDoug: Okay.
Xtarot: Are you okay?
CypherDoug: Just. Y'know. Thinking.
CypherDoug: And maybe worrying a smidge.
Xtarot: I am -fine-.
Xtarot: And thinking? About?
CypherDoug: Us.
Xtarot: Us?
CypherDoug: And Jamie's insinuations, and all the gossip that's apparently going around.
Xtarot: Oh dear.
Xtarot: Does it bother you?
Xtarot: Because.. I am not sure it bothers me.
CypherDoug: I...no, it doesn't bother me at all.
Xtarot: Good. Because if it did, I am not sure what I would do.
CypherDoug: Hm? What do you mean?
Xtarot: I don't want to stop being your friend, but if rumors bothered you, I would worry about it
CypherDoug: You will _never_ stop being my friend, Angie. *hugs tight*
No matter what.
Xtarot: I do not understand how you can still say that, but I believe you.
Xtarot: I am still sorry about Thursday morning. I have no idea what that -was-.
CypherDoug: Darned if I know. The only guess I have is that it might have something to do with Manuel. He usually talks about emotions being represented by colors. But I have no idea what that weird ribbon thing was.
Xtarot: I will ask when I get back. It stopped, it has not happened again.
Xtarot: ...
Xtarot: doug?
CypherDoug: Sorry, am responding to insinuating emails from Jamie as well.
Xtarot: What is Jamie saying?
CypherDoug: He's not buying the 'we're just friends'.
CypherDoug: We're also talking about how we're going to pull one over on Guido. *grin*
Xtarot: He did not buy it from me either.
Xtarot: What are you doing to Guido, and will there be embarassing pictures?
CypherDoug: Hopefully. *grin*
CypherDoug: Alison is starting a new independent record label.
CypherDoug: And we're going to Minnesota to scout Guido's band.
Xtarot: Minnesota?
CypherDoug: And Alison's going to take an image inducer.
CypherDoug: Guido goes to the University of Minnesota.
Xtarot: That is one of those states in the north part of America?
CypherDoug: Yes.
CypherDoug: It borders Canada.
Xtarot: Oh. .. I suppose you won't be back when I get home?
CypherDoug: Nah, I think we're shooting to leave Tuesday. You're coming back Monday, right?
Xtarot: I think we get in late on Monday. I think. My times are all wrong. Insomnia and jet lag.
CypherDoug: *nods* I'll check with Jamie and Alison. I should be able to be at the airport to greet you guys.
Xtarot: Really?
CypherDoug: What, you think I'm going to sit around at the mansion while Mr. Summers or whoever picks you guys up?
Xtarot: You know that Jamie is only going to keep teasing you?
CypherDoug: Yes.
Xtarot: Okay.
CypherDoug: And you could maybe come along on the trip if you wanted. I could ask Alison.
CypherDoug: Which reminds me, the evil we're wreaking on Guido.
CypherDoug: Alison's taking an image inducer.
Xtarot: Wait? You are leaving -after- I get back??
Xtarot: I am so confused now.
CypherDoug: Yeah. Sorry, _next_ Tuesday.
Xtarot: OH!
Xtarot: I could use a trip without cranky people.
CypherDoug: Anyways, if I know Ali (and I do), she'll play up the groupie thing for Guido, and he'll be hitting on her for all he's worth. Because Guido lives his entire existence below his belt. And then she'll take the inducer off and give him a heart attack.
Xtarot: Can I take pictures?
CypherDoug: Oh, there will be _many_ pictures.
Xtarot: Oh good.
Xtarot: I am good with pictures. Did you see the one of Jamie's jacket?
Xtarot: The one of -his- Pants is around too. It was not as good though.
CypherDoug: I did indeed see the picture. He looks scarily good in that jacket.
Xtarot: It suits him.
CypherDoug: It does.
Xtarot: The pants, I am still not sure about.
CypherDoug: *nods* What can I say, he just can't pull them off like me. *mock preens*
Xtarot: I like your Pants on you. They show off your butt.
Xtarot: Merde. I did not just say that to you.
CypherDoug: Um, I already kinda knew your opinion of The Pants, Angie.
Xtarot: Oh.
Xtarot: *blush*
CypherDoug: *blushes too*
Xtarot: You are cute when you blush.
CypherDoug: So are you.
Xtarot: You are silly.
CypherDoug: Yes. Yes, I am.
Xtarot: I like you for it. Silly is good.
CypherDoug: Jamie. Is. Not. Helping.
Xtarot: What is Jamie doing?
CypherDoug: Not telling, not telling, not telling...
Xtarot: Why aren't you telling?
Xtarot: He isn't reading this, is he?
CypherDoug: Because. And no, he's not. I'm hiding with my laptop away from my room. We're emailing back and forth.
Xtarot: Because is not a good reason.
CypherDoug: It's a perfectly valid reason. *blush*
Xtarot: It is not.
Xtarot: Is he making assumptions?
CypherDoug: Sort of.
Xtarot: *folds arms, raises eyebrow*
CypherDoug: *fidgets*
Xtarot: What? What has you so upset?
Xtarot: Doug, please. Now I am worried.
CypherDoug: No, it...I...*blushes madly*
CypherDoug: "I ever tell you about how Kitty and I were 'just friends' until we went to Chan's because I'd never had Chinese food, and we got back and Lorna asked how the date went?"
Xtarot: Oh.
Xtarot: OH.
Xtarot: *blushes*
CypherDoug: *curls up*
Xtarot: You don't think I'm going to be mad at you, do you?
CypherDoug: Mad about what?
Xtarot: About you being all strange about Jamie teasing you.
CypherDoug: Um.
Xtarot: Um? Um is not a word.
Xtarot: Doug?
CypherDoug: Um is my word for when I don't know what to say.
Xtarot: Why are you so strange about Jamie teasing you?
CypherDoug: No reason?
Xtarot: Does this have anything to do with Lorna's math thing?
CypherDoug: I think so.
CypherDoug: I don't understand the math thing.
Xtarot: I think I do a little.
CypherDoug: Um. I think I have a suspicion.
CypherDoug: *blush*
Xtarot: Am I going to have to drag this out of you?
Xtarot: Oh. Oh. wait.
CypherDoug: ?
Xtarot: You aren't strange about this because of the .. .. Remy.. thing?
CypherDoug: No.
CypherDoug: Not at all.
Xtarot: Oh. OH. Oh, thank God.
CypherDoug: No, I told you already, I think, that you don't have to worry about that. It's not really any of my business anyway.
Xtarot: Then what is wrong?
CypherDoug: It's embarassing. And I don't know that I can tell you.
Xtarot: What could possibly be so embarassing that you could not tell me?
CypherDoug: Um.
Xtarot: Should I guess?
CypherDoug: *headdesk*
CypherDoug: You have a guess?
Xtarot: I have a question.
Xtarot: *looks* Did you fall down?
CypherDoug: No. What's the question?
Xtarot: You believe in gender equality, right?
CypherDoug: Yes.
Xtarot: Good. Then you won't have any objection to me paying for dinner?
Xtarot: I mean, when I get home.
CypherDoug: Paying for dinner? Huh?
Xtarot: Because, I think we need to go out to dinner. Together.
Xtarot: Maybe while we're on the road trip to harass Guido.
CypherDoug: Um.
CypherDoug: Are you...?
Xtarot: Am I ?
CypherDoug: *blush*
Xtarot: You never finished asking your question.
CypherDoug: *takes deep breath* ...askingmeonadate.
Xtarot: Yes.
CypherDoug: Um.
Xtarot: So.
CypherDoug: *nonverbal*
Xtarot: So, would you like to go to dinner with me?
CypherDoug: Wibble.
Xtarot: That is NOT a word.
CypherDoug: It's the noise I make when I go nonverbal.
Xtarot: I'm sure it is adorable in person. It is also not an answer to my question.
CypherDoug: Yes. Yes, I will go to dinner with you. *tries to breathe*
Xtarot: Good.
Xtarot: You are far too cute to suffocate yourself to death.
CypherDoug: Just. Y'know. Incredibly nervous now.
CypherDoug: Because of stuff that I...wasn't going to talk about.
Xtarot: I am confused.
CypherDoug: "Ah, but denial implies there's something there to deny."
Xtarot: Not I am -very- confused.
Xtarot: Oh. That is a quote?
CypherDoug: Yes. From Jamie.
Xtarot: Oh, Doug..
CypherDoug: *blushes and covers head*
Xtarot: *makes a decision*
CypherDoug: Hm?
Xtarot: *decides your blush is terribly cute and that you should blush more, but for better reasons*
CypherDoug: Better reasons? Am the confused one, now.
Xtarot: Well, blushing just because I asked you on a date is a little silly. Blushing because I think you have a cute butt, that is a better reason.
CypherDoug: I'm not blushing _just_ because you asked me on a date.
Xtarot: So why are you blushing?
CypherDoug: Because of stuff that is there to deny.
Xtarot: That made no sense.
CypherDoug: I was being intentionally obscure about it.
Xtarot: Would it help if I told you that I thought maybe denial was probably not a good idea?
CypherDoug: Denial about what?
Xtarot: Whatever you are denying.
CypherDoug: *bites the bullet*
Xtarot: Ow?
Xtarot: Oh. nevermind. I get it.
CypherDoug: So you think I shouldn't deny that I might have 'more than just friends' feelings for you?
CypherDoug: *hides*
Xtarot: oh, Doug.
Xtarot: No, I think you should not deny it.
CypherDoug: *curls up*
Xtarot: I think .. maybe I probably have the same.
CypherDoug: You...do? *bites lip*
Xtarot: If how much I miss you is any indication...
CypherDoug: Oh?
Xtarot: Email your roommate. He said to tell you.
CypherDoug: That little open note is fine by me.
Xtarot: Doug, I sent you -how- many emails? Yes, I miss you.
CypherDoug: Still, there's missing a friend, and then there's the 'maybe something more' bit. One does not imply the other.
Xtarot: I can't explain it. Not over IM, I do not think.
CypherDoug: Okay.
Xtarot: *hug*
CypherDoug: *hugs back*
CypherDoug: I _am_ scared, you know.
Xtarot: Why?
CypherDoug: Scared of you not returning feelings, scared of messing it up, scared of so many things.
Xtarot: I'm .. a little scared too.
CypherDoug: Why?
Xtarot: ...
CypherDoug: Hm?
Xtarot: Because the Knight of Cups has come up in every reading I've done for the last -day-.
Xtarot: and I have no idea what that means.
Xtarot: Because I don't want to scare you
CypherDoug: I...oh. The card that came up for me, right?
Xtarot: Because.. I don't want to hurt you.
Xtarot: Yes.
CypherDoug: I don't think you could hurt me, Angie.
CypherDoug: Not intentionally, anyway.
Xtarot: I wouldn't on purpose.
Xtarot: Ever.
CypherDoug: *looks at clock* God, it is really really really late. I should go to bed. But I don't want to.
CypherDoug: And I know you wouldn't.
Xtarot: I should log off soon before Jubilee finds me 'obsessing over the computer." and tries to make me go outside.
Xtarot: But not just yet.
CypherDoug: *sighs* I don't ever want to get off the computer.
This...this moment is...nice.
Xtarot: *hug* Because talking to you is good. It makes me happy.
Xtarot: Yes. Yes it is.
CypherDoug: Talking to you makes me happy too, Angie.
CypherDoug: But it's almost four in the morning, dear.
Xtarot: Do you get a funny warm jolt in your spine sometimes, saying that?
Xtarot: Not here. Breakfast time. Time zones, remember?
CypherDoug: Yes. I kinda typed it without thinking. But I meant it.
And I get a little jolt reading it.
CypherDoug: Yes, but I have stuff tomorrow, that I should try to at least be semi-awake for.
Xtarot: *blush*
Xtarot: I should get some sleep. I've been sleeping at least, which is good.
Xtarot: Though, I am going to need that road trip. Vacation from my vacation.
CypherDoug: I should too. Am practically falling asleep on my keyboard, dear.
CypherDoug: And yes, I wrote it intentionally that time. *shy smile*
Xtarot: Go sleep.
Xtarot: *hug*
CypherDoug: *hugs tight*
CypherDoug: I miss you so much. I wish you were here.
Xtarot: I miss you too. And I wish I was there. Or that you were here.
CypherDoug: The Atlantic Ocean really _bites_.
Xtarot: Yes, yes it does.
Xtarot: Go get some sleep, cheri. I will be emailing and possibly online tommorow.
CypherDoug: Okay. Yeah, there's probably more talking to be done, I'd imagine.
CypherDoug: Am propping eyelids open as it is.
CypherDoug: G'night, Angie.
Xtarot: Sleep well, Doug.