xp_communication | Emails to Shiro, Paige, Scott and Nathan (Reply)

To: [Yoshida Shiro]
From: [Forge, JH]
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I wanted you to know I don't hold any grudges for your reaction to what I posted this morning. I do appreciate your honesty. I'm not going to try and make excuses or comparisons. All I can say is that I made a mistake, I acted without considering any consequences beyond what I felt needed to be done. Dr. Samson, during our talks, posed the theory that somehow I created the bomb flawed. That I somehow subconsciously stopped myself from doing something horrible. I don't know if I believe that, and I don't suppose it matters. If that makes me an attempted killer in your eyes, then that's just how it's going to be.

I think your opinion is the one that matters to me here, though. Because we aren't friends. We barely even share any friends, and I think we've maybe spoken three words to each other out loud this entire year. So I can trust your opinion as unbiased when it comes to me. Knowing what you now know, and if it were you making the decision: do I belong here? I'm asking you specifically, what do you think?

JHF

To: [Guthrie, Paige]
From: [Forge, JH]
Subject:

I owe you an explanation. For everything. And I'd rather not do it over email. Can I see you tomorrow sometime?

JHF

To: [Summers, Scott; Dayspring, Nathan]
From: [Forge, JH]
Subject:

I wasn't looking for defense or vindication today. But thank you. I want to think that my time here has changed me from what the person I was. I know a lot of people might not think that way, or even that it matters - and their opinion is important to me. If the decisions I made back then cost me what I've built here - then maybe that's what's fair. Chickens coming home to roost, they say. But your confidence in me means a lot to me. Thank you.

JHF