Note left for Pete
Dec. 2nd, 2005 05:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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xp_communicationTacked onto the door of his old room, an envelope with 'Pete' on it in Amanda's handwriting. Inside, the note reads:
I probably should have waited, but if I had I mightn't have gone through with it. I have no idea where you are or when you'll be back, but I wanted you to know I'm not staying at the school. I can't get the help I need here, with the magic and the rest, and I can't trust Rom or Strange to be there when I need them, not when I'll be wondering all the time if it's another test, or there's something bigger going on.
Any way, I've gone to New Orleans with Remy, to stay with Tante Mattie. She's taken away the magic, with my permission, and she's going to help me deal with the stuff in my head. That way, if my power does come back, I won't be a danger, to myself or anyone else - the magic's too much for me, Pete, I can't deal with it and it's time I tried another way. Maybe even finish high school, do those college classes I was talking about, get a part time job.
Live a normal life.
You'll probably see it as running away again, but I don't think it is, not this time. Tante isn't going to make it any easier for me, but I know she'll do her best to help me, without being distracted or disappearing on me. And I've done too much fucking damage to ever feel this place is home. And it's home to more people who need it than I do. They don't have options, but I do, and I'm taking them.
I hope you get back in one piece from whatever it was you left for. I figure it was important, so, I hope it went well. I've got my PDA and phone if you need to get in touch at all.
Amanda.
I probably should have waited, but if I had I mightn't have gone through with it. I have no idea where you are or when you'll be back, but I wanted you to know I'm not staying at the school. I can't get the help I need here, with the magic and the rest, and I can't trust Rom or Strange to be there when I need them, not when I'll be wondering all the time if it's another test, or there's something bigger going on.
Any way, I've gone to New Orleans with Remy, to stay with Tante Mattie. She's taken away the magic, with my permission, and she's going to help me deal with the stuff in my head. That way, if my power does come back, I won't be a danger, to myself or anyone else - the magic's too much for me, Pete, I can't deal with it and it's time I tried another way. Maybe even finish high school, do those college classes I was talking about, get a part time job.
Live a normal life.
You'll probably see it as running away again, but I don't think it is, not this time. Tante isn't going to make it any easier for me, but I know she'll do her best to help me, without being distracted or disappearing on me. And I've done too much fucking damage to ever feel this place is home. And it's home to more people who need it than I do. They don't have options, but I do, and I'm taking them.
I hope you get back in one piece from whatever it was you left for. I figure it was important, so, I hope it went well. I've got my PDA and phone if you need to get in touch at all.
Amanda.
