Email to Jennie and Crystal

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To: [Stavros, J], [Amaquelin, C]
From: [Dane, L]
Subject:

Ladies,

I realize this is coming somewhat out of the blue and so I want to preface it by saying that I don't expect you to do anything with this information. I'm offering it to you simply because, well, admitting it is, after all, part of the whole dealing with it thing and I think that the two of you deserve an apology for having to bear the brunt of my disorder.

Back at the beginning of the month, discussion of my weight dragged an otherwise important conversation drastically off course and I was a bit snappish with both of you over it. Jennie, of course, was spot on when she noted that talking about my weight is much like beating your head against a brick wall, utterly futile. I tend to be utterly irrational about it and yes, despite all the evidence of the scale and my mirror, I think I'm fat.

That's because I'm an anorexic. It's not a recent revelation or anything. I've known that I am for...well, probably years but we'll go with March 2004, which is as good a date as any. When I can admit to it easily, that usually means things are going pretty well. However since last October, I've been having problems keeping control of it and it's gotten worse since July. I'm working on getting it back under control again but it took something of an intervention by a good
friend to get me there.

Jennie, I want you to know that I'm sorry for the hypocrisy. The last thing someone in your position needed was a caretaker who couldn't even manage to keep her own weight problems under control lecturing you over proper eating habits. It adds unnecessary stress to the situation and you didn't deserve that.

Crystal, I owe you an apology for this yet another failure by the staff of the school to protect the students from the weaknesses that beset us. This is the second time that my personal issues led to you having to suffer for my faults and I'm sorry for that. I'm not going to try to excuse my behavior since I'm sure that you wouldn't find the excuses compelling so I'll just apologize humbly instead.

While I could offer further explanations, they're the sort of thing that I'd rather not have shared. So I'll just apologize to you both for my failure and my lack of professionalism.

If you have any questions, you're free to ask of course. This isn't shared in confidence but I would ask that you be fairly discreet since it is very important to me, as I'm sure you can imagine.

Lorna

Comments

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to: [Dane, L]
from: [Stavros, J]

Um. Well. Huh.

While I appreciate the apology, I don't think it's strictly necessary. What I would appreciate more is to know you're getting help. Because, admiting it is one thing, actually working on it is another. Um, yeah, that's what I have to say there.

-Jennie

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To: [Stavros, J]
From: [Dane, L]

Jennie

Necessary to you or not, I needed to give it. I am indeed in all sorts of treatment and therapy. Again.

You're not the only one who has to force down milkshakes now.

Lorna

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To: [Dane, Lorna]
From: [Amaquelin, Crystal]

Ms. Dane,

I accept your apology. Do not worry, I am quite used to things like this now. I am sorry that, on a public forum, I facilitated a conversation about your weight. I am glad that your friend was able to help you and it is my sincere hope that you will continue to work on controlling your disorder.


Crystal

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To: [Amaquelin, C]
From: [Dane, L]

Crystal,

Thank you. Don't be sorry for the journal discussion, I'd already been ratted out by then to Dr. Voght, you didn't make anything worse.

Thanks again.

Lorna