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To: [Amanda]
From: [Cain]
Subject: Kurt

I can't pretend I'm thrilled about what Jean's suggesting, especially given the 'talk' we had the last time you were still jonesing and using me as a battery for a quick fix. But I been thinking, and this is different. You're different. And he's your brother, which has got to count for something. I don't know Kurt as well as... well, I can't say I know him at all. But he's a good man, I know that much.

Let me know what needs to be done, and I'm in.

~Cain.

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[xp_daytripper]

To: [Cain]
From: [Amanda]

Hah. You lot always surprise me, you really do.

I don't want to do this. I really don't. But Kurt needs me to do this - even if he's not going to die, his vision's damaged for life, by all accounts. And he is a good man, much better than I'll ever be. He's always stood by me, even when he had more than enough reason to write me off. And... well, he is my brother. Not by blood, but by choice. Him changing his name to mine... well, yeah. It meant a lot.

If I could do this on my own, I would. Fuck, even if it took everything I had. But Kurt wouldn't forgive himself if I did, and Jean's right, I mightn't have enough in me to finish the job. And I never asked for this - I thought of it, I can't deny that, but after what I did last time, I don't have the right to ask anyone to do this. But if it's being freely offered... well, I won't deny that it's a huge relief to know someone's willing.

As for what needs doing... Basically I need a few people - how many depends on who it is - to give me some of their energy. To fuel the healing spell. A bit like a blood donation, I suppose. I wouldn't take more than was needed and I'm guessing there'd be people keeping an eye on the whole thing. Hell, first sign of anything going wrong, the Professor or Jean has full permission to shut me down. I take what's needed, do the spell, and no more. I don't have the habit any more so there's no reason for me to.

I can't ask you to trust me, not with this. But you've been fair and honest with me, and that means a lot to me. I swear on my life that if there was any other way to do this, I would. I'm not out to hurt anyone, or to take anything that isn't freely offered. But if it is freely offered... well, I can't really thank you enough. For me and for Kurt.

A.