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[xp_daytripper]

To: [trustworthy]
From: [trouble]



... that passive aggressiveness didn't suit me. Well, it sure as hell don't suit you neither. All this rubbish about not understanding what it is to be a normal teenager and how you're glad you don't have to be one. I know you're having a rough time of it right now, but I don't see a lot of difference in what you said and what I said about not needing help. None of us are 'normal', remember?

I ain't saying this right. Come yell at me if you feel like it.

A.

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[x-rogue.livejournal.com]

to: [trouble]
from: [sin]
subject: passive aggressive

It was p/a of me to say that. Yes. But the truth is, I don't get what it's like. I don't mean because of being a mutant or because of having a head full of people. I mean I really don't get it. I don't get what S means by this kind of thing being part of being a teenager. I don't see how one's personal development or quality of life or any of that are improved or advanced by it. I don't understand that this is a 'normal' thing. It wouldn't be a normal thing for me even if I'd never manifested. It's funny, because I always thought of myself as such a rebellious kid, with my smart mouth and my own plans and opinions on things.

And I /don't/ have to be a teenager. I keep thinking I've missed out on something when the truth is, I have. But we all lose things and I've lost far worse than what I've missed on that front.

Logan worries that I've grown up too fast, he blames himself for it a lot, and I think he's wrong about worrying. Honestly, most of the reason I worry about it is because he does. Even if I have grown up too fast, there's no going back on it. I look around and I see a lot of people, including you, who have had to grow up too fast. I just grew in a different direction.

I keep thinking there's some rites of passage I've missed, that are going to make me a complete person, and it's just not true. I don't have to be a teenager. It's about time I stopped worrying about what I missed in the past and worried more about what I'm missing now.

I don't want to come and yell at you. You're right that it was a bitchy thing to say, especially without explanation. Sorry.

The news was mixed, and it's not over and I can't say more than that. I need to get my head around it all.

Marie

[xp_daytripper]

To: [sin]
From: [trouble]

Subject: Need company?

I know you've probably got a line of people wanting to be all supportive who haven't gone and called you p/a first, but I'd like to see you before I take off this weekend. It sounds like you could use company, and I always explain things better when I don't have to worry about where the commas and full stops go.

Wait... fuck, I've only got a few minutes before I have to leave for LA. When I get back. Definitely.

A.