Email to Jean-Paul

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To: [Beaubier, Jean-Paul]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]


I understand I was trialing the other day, however I appreciate your patience and cutting down my dry cleaning bill with your lesson.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]


You should know that Valentia has been inquiring about you by means of drawing a blue woman. She has not quite figured out how to add white crayon to white paper and make it show up properly.

-Manuel
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To: [Sefton, Amanda]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]


Naturally I expect you to visit this week, should you have the time.

-Manuel
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Comments

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Yes. That they are. Matters have not swayed my opinion, however that is between Laurie and myself. Not you and I.

-Manuel

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To:[de la Rocha, Manuel]
From: [Lennox, Morgan]

The display and manifestation of that opinion is between you and I. Specifically the tunnel vision and obsession after I'd agreed to your terms.

-M. Lennox

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Your dismissive attitude was why obsession played a vicious cycle. It is very frustrating to have the importance of an issue dismissed.

-Manuel

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To:[de la Rocha, Manuel]
From: [Lennox, Morgan]

The dismissive attitude was because you were being a complete and utter twat over something you weren't even sure would be a problem because you jumped to conclusions instead of going to someone who could give you definitive answers first.

-M. Lennox

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I have since gotten my answers and I am not beyond educating myself further. Had you not opened your mouth to Laurie, I would have had a very different conversation with her and seen the professor first hand, then Jean, to discuss her powers and the effects they have on my sister.

-Manuel

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To:[de la Rocha, Manuel]
From: [Lennox, Morgan]

Had I "not opened my mouth"? Are you fucking kidding me? You wanted myself and everyone else to usher your little sister as far away from Laurie as possible whenever the two were in proximity. You weren't telling her this, after you offered to make a public post on the journals I'll remind you, so I did. It was better for her to be told before she ran into that situation and wondered what the fuck she'd done to offend whoever the hell it was. You wanted someone who is like a sister to me away from your sister and you hadn't even bothered to tell her. Damn right I was going to do it. Fuck the consequences of it, it was the right fucking thing to do. Deal with it.

-M. Lennox

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Please. You barely know Laurie. Walking into the mansion only a few months ago and proclaiming that someone is like a 'sister' is utter bullshit, especially when you have no blood relationship. I understand a protective hand you hold over someone as I do it often with another, however this was not of your concern. It was not of your business and continues not to be.

Your ignorance on what I was 'going to do' is astounding (do you honestly believe I would go to such lengths to embarress Laurie?), considering this only reenforces that you are just like everyone else on your assumptions.

What I thought was a friendship was quickly tossed out the door by you and thank you for being the blatant reminder that trust is better left for dreamers grasping at stars they cannot reach (pardon the melodrama).

Truely you must mean 'fuck the consequences' because you severed whatever Laurie and I had once established (by taking matters into your own hands) and you have done so the same with myself.

-Manuel

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To:[de la Rocha, Manuel]
From: [Lennox, Morgan]

Blood relation doesn't make you family any more than Kurt and I both having blue skin makes us a different species or race. I've cared about Laurie longer than you've cared about your sister and it's invalid because we're not genetically related? That's why I am in Ireland making sure she's going to be okay on her own for this giant world travel thing she's doing and more or less begged LeBeau to okay me splitting and agreed to do massive amounts of work while I was here just so I could look after her, right? Because running around Ireland and the UK like mad working while juggling a civilian, more or less, is my idea of fun and I sign up for it for no reason, right? Just because I don't proclaim my attachments to people doesn't mean they don't exist.

You told me you intended to speak to every person who spends time with Valentia to keep her away from Laurie. I waited days and you didn't say anything to Laurie about it at all. There's no reason for me to think you didn't go and talk to people who are near your sister, though. Do you have any idea how hurt she was by the fact that you didn't trust her to keep her powers under wraps and assumed instead that she'd hurt a little girl? Maybe you got the annoyed and angry version from her but I didn't.

I didn't toss anything out the door. I'm so glad you make sweeping assumptions right after accusing me of the same. Hypocrite much? You and I were not going to have a calm, rational conversation about this topic so I was leaving it. I also moved out of the mansion, had a new job to work my ass to the bone, friends I was on good terms with to maintain and a new relationship to pay attention to. I haven't had loads of free time on my hands and we both needed time not dealing with each other to gain perspective and calm. I was going to go see you and talk to you once I was back from Ireland since the entire thing is a moot point with Laurie out of the country. But since you decided you wanted to have it out in an email here we are.

I didn't sever anything. How you handled things after the fact, or your lack of handling them to begin with, may have but it wasn't my doing. When you decided you didn't want Laurie near Valentia to stop powers-induced catastrophe Laurie should have been the first person you talked to about it. But you didn't. You talked to me and who knows who else and days later still hadn't spoken to Laurie. That was your choice. My choice was to inform her that you didn't want the two mixing because it was only fair for her to know that before the situation arose and so she didn't unknowingly go against your wishes.

As far as us, if you're going to hold my decision to tell her against me then that's your choice and right. Though keep in mind that the same thing that caused me to tell her is the same thing that causes me to defend you and would cause me to tell you if people were saying things about you to me that weren't getting back to you and weren't all puppies and rainbows. I am upfront and I am honest. Anyone I decide to give a damn about will know everything people tell me about them that isn't told in the strictest of confidences. This includes information or opinions that may hurt them but that they are better off knowing. It includes people being assholes and talking loads of shit about you behind your back. Because I believe in full disclosure and if people were skulking about whispering things about me into the ears of people who have decided to give a damn about me then I'd want them to tell me, too. That is why I told her. And that is why I would tell you if someone were saying things about you to me that they weren't telling you. Hold that against me if you will, but I'm not going to apologize for caring about people and trying to stop them from being more hurt when I could avoid it.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I was very unhappy at the time of the conversation and things were said that i would obviously not do. I didnot talk to Laurie right away as I was simply too busy, it was not on my priority list and gaining an audience with Xavier while clearing a time in my schedule, while fitting my sister into an early childhood education (because she is behind) was not possible.

Of course I would talk to her, just as I have only spoken to you about this and you alone. I did not go raging my hostilities to other people about her, nor would I separate her in a journal system, attacking her powers. I do not appreciate other people taking my problems in their own hands. My demands were yes, unreasonable, and yes, I did acknowledge that with the professor days ago. Simply to further my understanding of her powers, it was suggested that I speak to Jean, a task I have yet to fit in as I simply have not had time nor does it matter now as Laurie is off to another country. Measures were in the process of being taken however you were not patient and did not even bother to ask me if I had spoken to her or had future plans to do so. Respectively, I assumed what we talk (or yell) about is between us however you have other ideas of saving the planet and everyone from hurt.

She phoned me under the assumption I had called her a monster - a term not taken very lightly by the very person everyone deems as a monster himself - a monster from your mouth and your words. I never made that observation and I would have not, what with laurie being so young and having damaging effect on her already. However at that point, she was not in a listening mood and assumed many ridiculous notions that I have no desire nor energy to put to rest. Naturally, Laurie and I will not talk anymore and it is possible you have hurt her more than I would have, as this could have been prevented had you just allowed some faith in my humanity to come through and asked me when/if I would be speaking to her myself.

It is very easy to make those 'sweeping assumptions' when your entire existence has been nothing but what people discard after they are finished using you. The only difference between that assumption and the one with you is that you have never asked me for anything nor have you robbed me of my sanity.

-Manuel

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To:[de la Rocha, Manuel]
From: [Lennox, Morgan]

Given how single-minded you have become why should I assume you wouldn't make the safety of your sister, who you were so adamantly concerned about in this regard, a priority that would be acted upon immediately? There was no reason for me to doubt you'd do precisely what you'd said you would. Rarely have you said to me you'd do something and then not done it. What reason had I for thinking this was any different?

I never said you called her a monster, I said you acted like she was a monster, which is true. Though I will have a conversation with her before I leave, assuming I can pry her puppy dog eyes off Eamon long enough, to clarify things I clearly must have misrepresented during our initial conversation.

What we talk, or yell, about will always stay between us until it impacts someone I care about. If you'd like I can give you a list of people to which that applies so you'll be prepared in the future to either not make remarks of the sort I will feel compelled to share or to know what you say will get back to that person. Either that or you can give up the option entirely for me to do the courtesy of reporting things people say about you which are potentially hurtful or damaging and then I'll agree to keep my mouth shut about whatever you say about others to me. Though the pay off of that option really doesn't seem worth it to me, but then I'm not you.

You're right, I've never asked you for anything and while I'm sure I annoy the hell out of you half the time I'd probably have to put forth real effort to steal any of your sanity. I did not, however, ever discard you. Even if you obviously thought I had. Sometimes it's just better to go away for a while and deal with it when you're more capable of doing so more gracefully.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Next time, ask. Do not assume with me. I am an empath. I run off other people's emotions 100% of the time when I am not under the cover of my own emotional shield. Thankfully, they do not escalate anymore because of my sister, who yes, I am adamently concerned about and protective of. She is my last and only living relative. Our name will die with us. Yes, I loath the idea of procreating. While the process can be fun (and I am not sure why I am telling you this), sex can be incredibly addictive with an empath and their partner. Ecstasy is very easily gasped over and over. I believe I could probably kill someone using that method.

To be honest, I would merely take that list as to not create further conflict between us. I care nothing of what people say of me.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Death by orgasm. I can think of so many worse ways to go. I've even seen some of them. Why weren't you shield having? I mean, if all that was mostly just me being annoyed at you and you running off it why didn't you just put up shields? Seems like the easiest thing to do.

It's a short list anyway.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

It's mentally exhausting to keep my shields up all the time and even more difficult when I am tired, which I was that at the time. It's not a barricade like telepaths (or what I assume telepaths would have). I have to take my own emotion and build off of it, layering it up and maintain a focus on it to have some peace.

Death by orgasm - is there any other better way to go?

Do not think I did not notice your casual mention of a relationship in there either.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Can you do me a favor and kill me via orgasm if I ever have need of being taken out by friendly fire first?

You notice nothing....

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

If the need does call for it. But remember, you asked.

I notice _everything_.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Oh I will so remember that I asked. You don't forget asking someone to kill you by orgasm.

Well you can pretend not to because I'm already imagining your reaction to this and it makes me want to smack you. Hard.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I almost think it would be a very cruel death with an overload of pleasure. Almost like torture.

All the more reason to tell me through email. I can avoid injury.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I've been tortured. I'm willing to bet it sucks a lot less when it's pleasure and not just pain involved.

And then learn how to keep a straight face before I'm back in the country in a couple days?

I'm dating Sam Guthrie.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I've heard pain can be turned into pleasure, however that is something I do not want to experience in this lifetime or the next.

A guthrie? Oh you are right to tell me over the computer. Delightful. I do not think I have laughed like that since I cannot remember when. Days before my coma?

That took ten years off my life.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Pain can only be pleasurable if you've got the right inclinations and know how to make it so. I'm not a masochist at all. A little biting, a little scratching and that's as far as my pain for pleasure principle goes. It's really disturbing to see the real painsluts in the throes of it though.

See, I knew you'd end up laughing. He's a good guy, though. Even if he is way too sweet and innocent to be associating with the likes of me.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I think the pleasure I would give could be considered pain. Your body can only take so much.

Days. That will keep me smiling for days, if not weeks.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

Hmmm, maybe I should rethink this Death By Orgasm thing.

God, it's not that amusing.

-Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I'm tempted to offer a trial run.

Oh it is. Trust me. It is... 'sweet'. I believe that is the correct term I am looking for.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

I don't think Sam would appreciate that.

Yeah, yeah, I'm dating stereotype Southern guy, get over it. -Morgan

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

He may not, however _you_ would.

I will inform you immediately of the first day I can think about it and not grin.

-Manuel

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To:[Lennox, Morgan]
From: [de la Rocha, Manuel]

That's entirely possible. But I'm dedicated to only having myself or him give me orgasms.

Don't worry, I won't hold my breath waiting for that.

-Morgan