xp_communication | Email to Alison

To: [mamabird]
From: [jealous!]

I have been replaced! Supplanted! Cast aside! *mock sulk* In favour of a bear that isn't even BLUE. You always said blue was the best colour for fur!

Joking aside, my dear, I'm sorry about being so uncommunicative yesterday. I was... very upset, and not really capable of being reasonable about it. I'm sure you recall how badly I broke down after my change and... well, it all got brought up again. Which has nothing to do with Clarice, really (although my confidence in her judgement is severely lessened), just with me. There are some things I can't really deal with yet, or possibly ever, and the idea of being laughed at, ridiculed for what I am, is the biggest. And since you persisted in being mature and reasonable about it (dreadful woman!), I didn't feel that I could talk to you about it. Which is not to say that you shouldn't continue being mature and reasonable - one of us ought to - but that there are times when I can't be.

Of course, something that might make me feel better is a playmate of an equally unusual and attractive hue... I do believe I was promised the loan of a little green boy, this weekend? I've been looking forward to it, and have laid in new cartoon-supplies.

I am sorry I shut you out. *hugs* I was distressed, and afraid, and couldn't be reasonable just then.

Forgive me?

Hank

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To: [hugsaplenty]
From: [mamabird]
Subject: Well...

That email nickname made me snort coffee up my nose. You should know that. I don't think many people could get away with calling me that and I'm still not used to people in general calling me a mama or a mother and the first time Miles did I was just useless because well, he did and that was big and... I'm rambling again.

*grins* Erm... the bear has a blue bandana? ;) And see, all you have to do now is give me a Hank plush. It could keep Abomination company!

Well, the being mature and reasonable thing is still new to me. Sometimes I even don't realize I'm actually doing it and then I wonder what the heck I said in the first place. ;) And I wasn't holding it against you - as you said, I remember. Besides, we all have our moments like that... and if we're not allowed to get that way between friends and get free passes on it, then when are we? Just remember that just because I'm being reasonable and mature doesn't mean I won't give hugs and listen to as well or that you have to be mature and reasonable? I think the two can work together nicely... and heaven knows you put up with all sorts of nonsense from me on a regular basis.

And you were indeed made a promise - and since the plane leaves tonight so I'll be finding you before we go to do the official bestowing of babysitting duties. Miles is looking forward to it, actually - he's been making plans. ;)

Of course, Hank. And I'm just sorry I didn't hit the right support note, but... we can't always be on the spot every single time, right? I hope someone else did, at least. You not being distressed is what's more important in all of this. And I'm glad you're feeling stronger about now and that it's okay.

*hugs*
Alison

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To: [#1mom]
From: [dotinguncle]

But I can get away with calling you that, right? Because I'm cute and fluffy! *g* Which does have its good points, I admit... and you know you love it. I've *seen* the look on your face when he calls you that. (I'm still lobbying for Uncle Hank, by the way)

Mature and reasonable is good, most of the time... as long as you don't let it go to your head and turn into Scott and have a over-responsible little breakdown. Maturity should be had only in moderation, otherwise it's bad for you. And free passes between friends are good too, as are hugs.

Please tell Miles that I'm looking forward to it too! There will be leaps into snowbanks, cartoons, and possibly camping, if he feels like it. (No, not out in the snow, o worried mamabird... but the attics are huge, we can put up a tent in there)

Nathan actually came down to my office and had a word with me... apparently I was churning up the astral plane. It helped a great deal... he certainly understands crises of identity. *e-hugs* So I'm doing much better now. Also, Danielle came down and dragged me off to eat. She's going to be as bossy as the rest of the lovely ladies around here, I can tell. But it gets me food, so I suppose I can live with it.

Much love, as always,

Hank