Email to Alison
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From: [jealous!]
I have been replaced! Supplanted! Cast aside! *mock sulk* In favour of a bear that isn't even BLUE. You always said blue was the best colour for fur!
Joking aside, my dear, I'm sorry about being so uncommunicative yesterday. I was... very upset, and not really capable of being reasonable about it. I'm sure you recall how badly I broke down after my change and... well, it all got brought up again. Which has nothing to do with Clarice, really (although my confidence in her judgement is severely lessened), just with me. There are some things I can't really deal with yet, or possibly ever, and the idea of being laughed at, ridiculed for what I am, is the biggest. And since you persisted in being mature and reasonable about it (dreadful woman!), I didn't feel that I could talk to you about it. Which is not to say that you shouldn't continue being mature and reasonable - one of us ought to - but that there are times when I can't be.
Of course, something that might make me feel better is a playmate of an equally unusual and attractive hue... I do believe I was promised the loan of a little green boy, this weekend? I've been looking forward to it, and have laid in new cartoon-supplies.
I am sorry I shut you out. *hugs* I was distressed, and afraid, and couldn't be reasonable just then.
Forgive me?
Hank
From: [jealous!]
I have been replaced! Supplanted! Cast aside! *mock sulk* In favour of a bear that isn't even BLUE. You always said blue was the best colour for fur!
Joking aside, my dear, I'm sorry about being so uncommunicative yesterday. I was... very upset, and not really capable of being reasonable about it. I'm sure you recall how badly I broke down after my change and... well, it all got brought up again. Which has nothing to do with Clarice, really (although my confidence in her judgement is severely lessened), just with me. There are some things I can't really deal with yet, or possibly ever, and the idea of being laughed at, ridiculed for what I am, is the biggest. And since you persisted in being mature and reasonable about it (dreadful woman!), I didn't feel that I could talk to you about it. Which is not to say that you shouldn't continue being mature and reasonable - one of us ought to - but that there are times when I can't be.
Of course, something that might make me feel better is a playmate of an equally unusual and attractive hue... I do believe I was promised the loan of a little green boy, this weekend? I've been looking forward to it, and have laid in new cartoon-supplies.
I am sorry I shut you out. *hugs* I was distressed, and afraid, and couldn't be reasonable just then.
Forgive me?
Hank
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Re: Reply email...
Date: 2005-01-14 10:29 pm (UTC)From: [dotinguncle]
But I can get away with calling you that, right? Because I'm cute and fluffy! *g* Which does have its good points, I admit... and you know you love it. I've *seen* the look on your face when he calls you that. (I'm still lobbying for Uncle Hank, by the way)
Mature and reasonable is good, most of the time... as long as you don't let it go to your head and turn into Scott and have a over-responsible little breakdown. Maturity should be had only in moderation, otherwise it's bad for you. And free passes between friends are good too, as are hugs.
Please tell Miles that I'm looking forward to it too! There will be leaps into snowbanks, cartoons, and possibly camping, if he feels like it. (No, not out in the snow, o worried mamabird... but the attics are huge, we can put up a tent in there)
Nathan actually came down to my office and had a word with me... apparently I was churning up the astral plane. It helped a great deal... he certainly understands crises of identity. *e-hugs* So I'm doing much better now. Also, Danielle came down and dragged me off to eat. She's going to be as bossy as the rest of the lovely ladies around here, I can tell. But it gets me food, so I suppose I can live with it.
Much love, as always,
Hank