Email to: Sefton, Amanda

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From: Kobaro
To: Sorgin
Subject: It's getting bad, isn't it?

I can feel it. I want to help you, in any way that I can. Let me lessen your cravings, or take them completely. There's no need for you to suffer like this - let me suffer for you, or banish it completely.

Let me do this for you. You know I can, you know it works.

Please.

Manuel

PS - And yes, I know that you feel you have to do it alone. Let me be your strength when yours is gone. I've done it before, I can do it again.

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To: Manuel
From: Amanda

Subject: Like that, is it?

No, you don't get a say. I didn't get a choice about getting hooked on my power, but I do have a choice about this, and I"m sticking to it. The whole thing about this addiction is that I _don't get a choice_ about wanting the power, and I'm sick of not being in control of something so fucking basic in my life.

Or maybe this is what you want, me being dependant on you? I know you're afraid I'll leave you one day - you're not the only one who gets stuff down the link the other one is trying to hide - and that'd stop that, wouldn't it, me being hooked on your power? Or maybe you want to be like everyone else, get me used to having you there to lean on, and then bugger off and watch me fall to bits.

A.

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From: Manuel
To: Amanda
Subject: That's not fair.

Of course that's one of the thoughts that has crossed my mind. But do you _really_ think that I'm trying to _addict_ you to me so that I can keep you by my side forever?

Please. I may be arrogant and foolish, but I'm not _that_ arrogant and foolish.

And I rather resent your tone. I'll assume that's withdrawl speaking and not actually you.

I ... I just want to help. I hate seeing you tear yourself apart, and I want to be there for you.

Manuel

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To: Manuel
From: Amanda

Subject: Help doesn't have to be powers.

I'm sorry to snap. It's just this is already hard enough, and I don't need to be arguing with you about this and it's so fucking hard to think straight right now. But I'm trying to do this the right way, try and kick this thing, and I can't do that if you take away the feelings. I want to be with you because I want to, not because my system can't cope without you.

You can still help without doing that, and you can be there without using your powers on me, can't you?

A.