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From: de la Rocha, Manuel
To: Xavier, Charles
CC: Sefton, Amanda; Five Colors; Shaw, Shinobi
Subject: My Power

Professor:

I think that my power is trying to fulfill my desires. It senses that if I want something, or don't want something, it then acts to try to make that happen / make that not happen. This is what got me into trouble with Amanda the other day - I wanted the link back, emotionally speaking, and my power did everything it could to make that happen.

This is why we were both down sick for as long as we were. This is not also the first time this has happened, but I don't want to talk about _that_ right now. Not unless I want more nightmares and sleepless nights.

Can you help me? There's nothing I can do when I'm blocked like this, and until I get control of this I'll never be unblocked.

Manuel de la Rocha

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Manuel,

I can make time to see you later today. You have been excused from classes already so I will contact you as soon as my schedule clears and we can discuss this and investigate further. Please take the time to rest appropriately so that you will be able to participate in our work to the best of your abilities.

Regards,
Charles

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To: de la Rocha, Manuel
From: Sefton, Amanda
CC: Xavier, Charles

Subject: That... makes sense

I felt your power pushing against the healing spell. I thought I'd done enough to block it, but not enough it looks like. I've been reading up on healing spells since it happened - healing involves energy transfer, from me to the person, and to do that it makes, you guessed it, a link. I never even thought...

Even when I'm trying to help I still fuck things up.

A.

Reply to Sefton, Amanda

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From: de la Rocha, Manuel
CC: Xavier, Charles
Subject: Don't blame yourself.

You are not the only one who 'fucks things up' when they try to do good. I hold you blameless. If anything, i feel guilt that I hurt you. And anger at myself for allowing it to happen.

Manuel

Reply to de la Rocha, Manuel

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To: de la Rocha, Manuel
From: Sefton, Amanda

Subject: You didn't hurt me.

Well, you did, but you didn't do it on purpose. And as much of this is me pushing meself too much - I used too much power, near drained meself dry. The headaches will go away, they always do. And its not as bad as that time when Illyana got taken. *wry grin*

Still, you feeling bad about it is sort of a good thing - means you're feeling, right?

We probably should talk about this - drop by when you're feeling up to it?

A.

Reply to Sefton, Amanda

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From: de la Rocha, Manuel
To: Sefton, Amanda.
Subject: Dropping By

Sure. I'll be by when I have a free moment.

Manuel