Email to Kevin

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To [Moon]
From [Swearing by you]
Subject: Crossing paths

I know I won't see you much this week cause I'm sleeping when you're working and vice versa, but I just wanted to let you know that Monday morn was really nice. Felt like a dream. Only better.

-Jay

Comments

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To: [Wings]
From: [Dust]
Subject: Why am I Moon?

Yeah, welcome to the nonexistent relationship. But, yeah, yesterday morning was nice.

-Kevin

P.S. Would've been nice if I found out you had a job from you and not from two of my friends though.

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To[Dust]
From[wings]
Subject: Romeo swore by the moon before Juliet made him swear by the sun, or not swear at all.

Because you didn't want to know about it. You said so yourself.

-Jay

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To: [Wings]
From: [Dust]
Subject: Right. Not really a Shakespeare person

About you bartending? Not really. That you've got a job ain't included in that. Considering you sleep in my bed pretty much every night you don't think I'd wonder where you were four nights in a row until ridiculous hours? Or, I don't know, that I might worry something happened somewhere 'cause the routine you've had pretty much the entire time you've been with me is suddenly upturned?

-Kevin

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To[Dust]
From[wings]
Subject: I know. I just... you know?

I kinda thought the two went together so I didn't say anything cause of that. Look, I just thought you didn't want to know about it. Bartending IS my job now. Why would you say our relationship is nonexistant?

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Well, since it didn't seem to occur to you, knowing a job exists and that you have it is not the same as hearing about the job itself. I didn't mean it entirely literally, but if you're asleep or at work when I'm around and I'm asleep or at work when you're around it doesn't take a genius to figure out the being around each other factor is pretty diminished.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

Just cause.... okay, I don't know. I mean, I could stay up until you go to work. We could spen.... I mean, Monday Tuesday and Wednesdays I have off, so its not nonexistant.

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Yeah, so you're dead tired and I'm only half coherent. Three days of the week, some of which require court mandated powers training and visits with my so beloved Dr Samson.

Whatever, we'll adjust or we won't.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

People do it all the time. What makes us different?

Jay

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

What's ever made us the same?

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some


We're normal people just living normal lives?

-Jay

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Speak for yourself.

-Kevin

[x-icarus.livejournal.com]

To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I was talking about our time that's normal. LIke our working hours. Why are you being so arguementive today? I just wanted to email you to tell you that I love you and I really enjoyed being with you.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

I'm not being argumentative. Just because I disagree with you doesn't mean I'm arguing. We don't keep normal hours, at least one of us doesn't. And saying we're normal people just living our lives says nothing about our time and something about us, and let's face it we're not normal. Only difference is I'm the only one of us who can acknowledge it without getting all upset about it.

Maybe the emails should just stop at this point.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I'm not upset. I just see us differently. I see the good in our relationship but you always point out the bad so its hard not to wonder why you keep trying to bring up all the bad points.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

If you'd notice I don't actually bring up anything on my own out of nowhere. That's usually your job.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

YOu brought up the job and the nonexistant relationship. Whatever, can we not just be normal here without being normal?

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Yeah I brought up the job because you refused to answer me when I point blank asked you about it when you came into my bed at 5 in the morning for the fourth day in a row. You took the nonexistent comment way too literal.

And if I could make sense of that question I might answer, but I've got no clue what the hell you're saying, or attempting to say, there.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I was tired when you asked me, alright? I didn't want to get into an arguement about it. I just wanted to curl up with you. That's it, that's what I love to do at 5 in the morn, or hell, anytime of the day.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

There wouldn't have been an argument. I just wanted to actually hear it from you after Clarice and Monet had both told me you had a job. Great places to find out from. I just wanted you to actually tell me yourself.

And you didn't.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I wanted to tell you about it, but I knew you didn't care. You didn't want to hear it when I was registering to get my liscense and you don't really wanna hear it now. No one cares about it. No one wants to know what I'm doing, no one thinks I can do anything and everyone leaves me out of everything.

Everyone's been puttin me down for things I wanna try and do. I'm kinda sick of it.

I didn't want to get all excited about it and tell you, only to have you telling me I shouldn't do it. You weren't pleased about it when we first talked and actually, I rememberclearly that we fought about it.

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Yeah I didn't want you to do it and I still don't because if someone decides to be anti-mutant and walk in there looking to cause damage the guy with the wings is an easy target. I really don't care if you've got a healing factor, I don't like it.

I haven't put you down for anything. I haven't told you that you can't do anything. So don't pretend I have. I don't know what other people have been doing but I never told you that you aren't capable or made fun of you for wanting to do something so don't make it out like I have. Not wanting you to do something and making fun of you for it are different things.

And if I remember correctly most of that argument was over you not liking me referring to myself as a freak.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

No one's gonna do that. They havn't done that in a long time. C'mon, how many people do that these days?

Maybe ya havnt' but it's feeling like the same thing.

Our arguements bleed into one another. So I can't remember it detail for detail.

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

When everyone is happy and fuzzy about mutants existing I'll stop expecting it to happen. People still get killed for being black, or Jewish, or gay and you expect me to not worry someone's going to go on a mutant killing spree?

Well I can't help your feelings. But the fact of the matter is the bartending thing is the only thing I've voiced anything but support for.

Well, that's because we argue a lot. I remember that one, though. I'm pretty sure it's the one that ended in a panic attack.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

Well I'll just take that as a sign that you care. It takes a lot to kill me so you can do the worrying for both of us.

And I get that. But it's the only thing I got going for me, aside from you, so I'm gonna stick with it for now. I need to make money.

Yeah we do and it ain't always gonna be pretty. At least we fight it out and don't bottle it up. Healthy relationships do that.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Because you were under the impression I didn't?

That's fine. I ain't telling you to quit, am I? I don't gotta like it, but you don't need me to like it either. I don't like it but I accept it.

Somehow I don't think we always fight it out.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

Sometimes you sound like you wanna get rid of me and be done with us.

Okay. That's something I can live with.

We do. It just takes us a little while.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

No. Sometimes I run out of patience or can't handle how when you react to something you tend to react really big, if that makes any sense. You're really emotional and I'm not. More things bug you than bug me so half the time dealing with you when something's pissed you off or upset you it's like trying to speak Greek and be understood.

That "little while" would be what is considered bottling, y'know.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I'm not emotional. I think its mostly to do with ... like... you know, its like telephone. You say something adn I take it hte wrong way. Not emotional, Just misunderstood.

And that depends on who you're asking.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

You get emotional about stuff. Maybe you don't see it, but you do. Case and point, me kissing Angel on the cheek and all that followed you finding out. That's being emotional, especially when I didn't previously know it was gonna bug you. And that's be misunderstanding. If you take what I say wrong you're misunderstanding, not misunderstood.

No, it really doesn't.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some


Or I'm just confused.

Yes. it does. Mule.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Maybe

Not any more than it depends on who you ask which color blue is.

-Kevin

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Forget email. I'm coming to bed.

-Jay