Email to Kevin

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To [Moon]
From [Swearing by you]
Subject: Crossing paths

I know I won't see you much this week cause I'm sleeping when you're working and vice versa, but I just wanted to let you know that Monday morn was really nice. Felt like a dream. Only better.

-Jay

Comments

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I wanted to tell you about it, but I knew you didn't care. You didn't want to hear it when I was registering to get my liscense and you don't really wanna hear it now. No one cares about it. No one wants to know what I'm doing, no one thinks I can do anything and everyone leaves me out of everything.

Everyone's been puttin me down for things I wanna try and do. I'm kinda sick of it.

I didn't want to get all excited about it and tell you, only to have you telling me I shouldn't do it. You weren't pleased about it when we first talked and actually, I rememberclearly that we fought about it.

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Yeah I didn't want you to do it and I still don't because if someone decides to be anti-mutant and walk in there looking to cause damage the guy with the wings is an easy target. I really don't care if you've got a healing factor, I don't like it.

I haven't put you down for anything. I haven't told you that you can't do anything. So don't pretend I have. I don't know what other people have been doing but I never told you that you aren't capable or made fun of you for wanting to do something so don't make it out like I have. Not wanting you to do something and making fun of you for it are different things.

And if I remember correctly most of that argument was over you not liking me referring to myself as a freak.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

No one's gonna do that. They havn't done that in a long time. C'mon, how many people do that these days?

Maybe ya havnt' but it's feeling like the same thing.

Our arguements bleed into one another. So I can't remember it detail for detail.

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

When everyone is happy and fuzzy about mutants existing I'll stop expecting it to happen. People still get killed for being black, or Jewish, or gay and you expect me to not worry someone's going to go on a mutant killing spree?

Well I can't help your feelings. But the fact of the matter is the bartending thing is the only thing I've voiced anything but support for.

Well, that's because we argue a lot. I remember that one, though. I'm pretty sure it's the one that ended in a panic attack.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

Well I'll just take that as a sign that you care. It takes a lot to kill me so you can do the worrying for both of us.

And I get that. But it's the only thing I got going for me, aside from you, so I'm gonna stick with it for now. I need to make money.

Yeah we do and it ain't always gonna be pretty. At least we fight it out and don't bottle it up. Healthy relationships do that.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Because you were under the impression I didn't?

That's fine. I ain't telling you to quit, am I? I don't gotta like it, but you don't need me to like it either. I don't like it but I accept it.

Somehow I don't think we always fight it out.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

Sometimes you sound like you wanna get rid of me and be done with us.

Okay. That's something I can live with.

We do. It just takes us a little while.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

No. Sometimes I run out of patience or can't handle how when you react to something you tend to react really big, if that makes any sense. You're really emotional and I'm not. More things bug you than bug me so half the time dealing with you when something's pissed you off or upset you it's like trying to speak Greek and be understood.

That "little while" would be what is considered bottling, y'know.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some

I'm not emotional. I think its mostly to do with ... like... you know, its like telephone. You say something adn I take it hte wrong way. Not emotional, Just misunderstood.

And that depends on who you're asking.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

You get emotional about stuff. Maybe you don't see it, but you do. Case and point, me kissing Angel on the cheek and all that followed you finding out. That's being emotional, especially when I didn't previously know it was gonna bug you. And that's be misunderstanding. If you take what I say wrong you're misunderstanding, not misunderstood.

No, it really doesn't.

-Kevin

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To[Kevin]
From[Jay]
Subject:some


Or I'm just confused.

Yes. it does. Mule.

-Jay

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Maybe

Not any more than it depends on who you ask which color blue is.

-Kevin

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To: [Jay]
From: [Kevin]
Subject: (none)

Forget email. I'm coming to bed.

-Jay