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From: Kevin
Subject: Help?
So, um, I don't really trust anyone to ask with this so here it goes. Jay said something in an email and I don't really know what to do with it. He said maybe he wants to die and I've got the email down below for context but, um...well, you know I have a really destructive mutation and if my boyfriend has a death wish, a serious one, that's kind of huge. I asked him about it and he avoided answering and I'm kind of wary of going back to the suite because of the destructive thing and then he said to ignore him and he was going to work. Can you please help me figure out what I should do?
----Forwarded Message----
To:[Kevin Ford]
From:[wings]
Subject:alot.
Who told you? Fuck, why does everyone go blabbing like they do? They just can't keep shit to themselves anymore. Godamnit.
And that is different. Maybe I just wanna die. You ever think of that?
I don't know. It doesn't matter now.
From: Kevin
Subject: Help?
So, um, I don't really trust anyone to ask with this so here it goes. Jay said something in an email and I don't really know what to do with it. He said maybe he wants to die and I've got the email down below for context but, um...well, you know I have a really destructive mutation and if my boyfriend has a death wish, a serious one, that's kind of huge. I asked him about it and he avoided answering and I'm kind of wary of going back to the suite because of the destructive thing and then he said to ignore him and he was going to work. Can you please help me figure out what I should do?
----Forwarded Message----
To:[Kevin Ford]
From:[wings]
Subject:alot.
Who told you? Fuck, why does everyone go blabbing like they do? They just can't keep shit to themselves anymore. Godamnit.
And that is different. Maybe I just wanna die. You ever think of that?
I don't know. It doesn't matter now.
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Date: 2008-05-09 03:57 am (UTC)From: Kevin
Subject: Re: Help?
Sometimes people snap though, right? I mean, sometimes it's there bubbling under the surface for a while and then it gets to a point where people kind of get pushed over the cliff and in the middle of the free fall they do stuff they wouldn't normally, right? I don't know, maybe it's just my thing. You know, the super paranoid don't want to hurt people thing. I don't know. I don't think I'm comfortable being near him right now with him having said that knowing he was trying to make it no big deal when I ended up shaving layers of skin off him last time. I should have done something about it last time. I just don't know what.
I don't mean to be silent over it. I'm just...not comfortable talking to him over it. I don't have any experience with people who are suicidal and physical distance to Jay is like emotional distance and he'd handle it badly when I didn't want to get too close which is totally a mental thing of mine, I know, but I can't just turn it off.
I'll, well I'll figure something out. And try. Thanks.