Email to Garrison

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to: [Kane, G]
from: [Stavros, J]
subj: maybe not done yet

You know why I don't like you?

Because you treat me like some idiot child who doesn't know her thumbs from her asshole. I understand and respect the fact that you've had more training than me, but when you use that in a pissing contest it holds very little merit. I am willing to admit that I over-reacted in regards to the forklift, and yes, it did quite possibly save my life and everything, but to go around bragging about it really made me angry. I said I wanted to talk to you and I felt that your tone was really dismissive and it basically set me off.

And then when I say I want to work with you in order to overcome my distrust, you turn around and lecture me like I'm five. I'm very sorry to inform you of this, but I am a full member of this team and you and I are equals, and as such, I would like if it you extend the courtesy of at least speaking to me like an adult. There is no easier way to calm me down than talking to me like an adult, and there's no easier way to piss me off further than by speaking to me like I'm a child.

We depend on one another Mr. Kane, like it or not.

-J

Comments

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There's about a dozen ways to answer this, and I've considered them all, but I'm tired, so simple seems best.

Jennie, I have never questioned your training. I have never objected when you were deployed with me, I've never expressed concerns about your capacity to do the job to the team leaders, and I made no issues about you being promoted from a trainee. I trust Scott and Ororo's judgment in regards to the X-Men, and you have not done anything in the field to make me doubt your competence. You haven't extended me the same courtesy. You have both my background and my record here, neither of which have any reason to consider that I have any competence issues that pose a threat in the field.

So when you say you distrust me, the only possible reason that you could have is because you don't like me, and that's the one reason that I'm not interested in clearing up. To say you don't trust me means you also don't trust the judgment of a lot of people with a hell of a lot more experience than you. That's when you're acting like a spoiled child, demanding that I meet your conditions rather than respecting the fact that I've already met the only ones that I have to.

I don't like assumptions. I don't like people telling me what I'm doing, as opposed to asking me. I wasn't bragging about saving your life to score points with Morgan, I was talking about the weirdness of hitting a medievel knight with a piece of industral equipment to Kyle. Kyle, who I train and thus know enjoys stories of people hitting other people with weird crap. Until you jumped in to tell me that I'd endangered you with my actions, you hadn't even come up at all. You also never bothered to consider that I did know what I was doing, painting it as a heat of the moment rookie mistake that I needed to some how make up to you. Once again, the spoiled child syndrome, demanding the world accepts your judgment of events.

If you want me to talk to you like an adult, that means you need to talk to me like you are one. You have a beef with a decision made in the field, you book a time, we pull the tapes, and go over what happened in the Danger Room. You've got an issue with a way that I do things, you come up with real reasons and concerns to address. However, as long as your way of handling things stays the same, I will dismiss you as an arrogent girl with a chip on her shoulder.

Kane

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Fine. Consider yourself booked for more training then.

And about the saving of your life? You're welcome.

-J