[identity profile] x-wither.livejournal.com posting in [community profile] xp_communication
to: [the mute]
from: [the asshole]

Nori, I'm sorry. I don't even know what to say beyond that. I know you're mad at me for lying and for not talking to you and telling you about me and Jay, but I don't even know how to make up for it. I don't want you to stay mad at me and I don't want you to never talk to me again. I just don't know what I can do to actually fix things. What do you want me to do?

Date: 2008-01-07 03:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

I don't know, Kevin. Not like you've given me a lot of reason to trust you these days...

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 03:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

I need more than one? Like this wasn't big enough?

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 03:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

I don't like being lied to.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 03:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

You know what, fuck you. This is not just about Jay. You didn't lie about anything that matters? You think it doesn't matter that you told me the only way I have to communicate with anyone was wrong?

~Translated from Japanese~

これ簡単でしょう?これ私よく知ってる。お前全然知らないけどそれは問題ないでしょう?腐ったバラ族。お前何でも分かないよ。

Date: 2008-01-07 04:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

You try reading tone when everything you see's gone through a computer before it even becomes comprehensible. Everyone knew that? Everyone but me, fuck-head.

It was about that, to me. It was about Jay and the computer and this fucking school and everything. It was about how no one knows anything and it's all lies and I can't sleep and I don't understand and I just want to go home and I never want to go back there and fuck you cause you don't even know.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 04:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

You're not. No one is.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 04:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

I don't... I just... I...

Fuck it. I need a drink.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 05:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

At least I'm not pretending there's nothing. I just don't want to talk about it.

You want to know, find me enough liquor to forget I'm telling you. Cause I don't want to remember right now.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 05:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

Well, it didn't come up with me, either, until it did, and then when it did I didn't claim it didn't.

If I tell you, will you get me drunk afterwards? There is nothing I wouldn't do for enough liquor right now.

~Translated from Japanese~
Edited Date: 2008-01-07 05:37 am (UTC)

Date: 2008-01-07 05:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

Yeah, there is that.

I... It was...

Fuck. Maybe there is something I won't do for liquor.

Where do I start?

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 05:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

The beginning is my forty-something ex-boyfriend I almost killed.

Or possibly the prescription sleeping pills I used to con my father out of.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 06:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

To sleep. I couldn't. Can't, still, but I didn't know then it was the power. So I'd take the pills and sleep, but then I'd need more. And then more. And then the thing with Mr. Ishii, and I ran out of pills. So it became other things - things which were stronger, worked better. And I had to find ways to pay for them. So I did.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 06:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

The short version is that an old classmate spotted me coming off a train, tipped a cop off and they handed me over to my parents who shipped me out of the country where I couldn't embarrass them.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 06:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

I don't want to go back. They don't want me, and I'd probably end up on the streets again.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 06:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

The language, the rules, the teachers and doctors and everything. At least on the streets I didn't have people telling me what to do.

Also, there was more liquor. Hint, hint.

~Translated from Japanese~

Date: 2008-01-07 06:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] x-kaminari.livejournal.com
~Translated from Japanese~

Yeah. Just don't know how safe it is.

Coming to find you.

~Translated from Japanese~

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