E-Mail to Nori

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

to: [the mute]
from: [the asshole]

Nori, I'm sorry. I don't even know what to say beyond that. I know you're mad at me for lying and for not talking to you and telling you about me and Jay, but I don't even know how to make up for it. I don't want you to stay mad at me and I don't want you to never talk to me again. I just don't know what I can do to actually fix things. What do you want me to do?

Comments

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well, it's not like I stayed with the not talking about it for long after.

If you tell me I promise to get you drunk after.

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

Yeah, there is that.

I... It was...

Fuck. Maybe there is something I won't do for liquor.

Where do I start?

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

The beginning usually works best.

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

The beginning is my forty-something ex-boyfriend I almost killed.

Or possibly the prescription sleeping pills I used to con my father out of.

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

Almost, but didn't actually kill. That's an important distinction, Nori.

Okay now I'm slightly confused. To overdose or just to calm your head down?

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

To sleep. I couldn't. Can't, still, but I didn't know then it was the power. So I'd take the pills and sleep, but then I'd need more. And then more. And then the thing with Mr. Ishii, and I ran out of pills. So it became other things - things which were stronger, worked better. And I had to find ways to pay for them. So I did.

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

So how'd you get from that to here?

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

The short version is that an old classmate spotted me coming off a train, tipped a cop off and they handed me over to my parents who shipped me out of the country where I couldn't embarrass them.

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

So you can't go back because of the family shame thing? Sorry if I sound dumb, but ya gotta remember I don't have any family and mine wouldn't have done that so it's kind of...foreign.

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

I don't want to go back. They don't want me, and I'd probably end up on the streets again.

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

I can understand that.

So why do you hate it here so much? Other than the language problems.

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

The language, the rules, the teachers and doctors and everything. At least on the streets I didn't have people telling me what to do.

Also, there was more liquor. Hint, hint.

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

But you can leave eventually, right? They can't make you stay after you're 18, can they? I'm stuck here until someone says I can go.

Yeah, I know. I promised, I'll make good on it.

[x-kaminari.livejournal.com]

~Translated from Japanese~

Yeah. Just don't know how safe it is.

Coming to find you.

~Translated from Japanese~

[x-wither.livejournal.com]

I'm in my suite.